zabt-e-ulfat kaa yahi ham ko silaa mil jaae — Asrar Zaidi

"aane vaali kal ki de kar khabar gayaa ye din bhi maah-e-visaal ki shiryaanon mein utar gayaa ye din bhi lamha lamha saaat saaat pal pal mein taqsim huaa reza reza hote hote bikhar gayaa ye din bhi us ki taabaani par kitne hi suraj qurbaan hue apne hone kaa dukh sah kar magar gayaa ye din bhi sard havaa kaa jhonkaa thaa jo sannaaTo ko chiir gayaa kitne dilon par dastak de kar guzar gayaa ye din bhi ham to apni nindon mein khvaabon ko jagaa kar khvaar hue mauj-e-saraab mein Dhal kar jaane kidhar gayaa ye din bhi"

"be-sadaa kyunkar huaa be-dast-o-paa kyunkar huaa main qafas mein bhi na thaa phir bhi rihaa kyunkar huaa aashnaa jitne bhi the naa-aashnaa kyunkar hue haadisa ye bhi huaa kaise huaa kyunkar huaa subh ki pahli kiran mehr-e-munavvar kab hui har bagula mauja-e-baad-e-sabaa kyunkar huaa baam-o-dar par jaa-ba-jaa parchhaaiyon ke aks the ghar kaa ye manzar bhi lekin khushnumaa kyunkar huaa Dubnaa Thahraa to phir kachche ghaDe ki shart kyaa vo sadaa kaa sang-dil dard-aashnaa kyunkar huaa shoabada-baazi kahaan kaar-e-masihaai hui aadmi jab aadmi Thahraa khudaa kyunkar huaa khaamushi kitne hi jazbon kaa pata deti rahi naala gar paaband-e-nai thaa naa-rasaa kyunkar huaa"

"ghar ki surat jo bhi ho us par hiraasaan main nahin dar muqaffal hain to divaaron se larzaan main nahin tujh mein himmat hai so phir shishe mein mujh ko bhi utaar haan magar ye jaan le itnaa bhi aasaan main nahin nafraton ki tah mein kitni chaahatein hain ye to soch tu gurezaan ho to ho tujh se gurezaan main nahin raushni dil mein agar ho ik sitaara hi bahut Dubte suraj ke manzar se pareshaan main nahin main ki apni zaat mein shoala bhi huun shabnam bhi huun phir bhi apne-aap se dast-o-garebaan main nahin raaste ke pech-o-kham mere lahu ki taak mein bakht ke andhe kuein mein paa-ba-jaulaan main nahin mausamon ki dhuup se kajlaa gayaa chehre kaa rang aadmi huun be-niyaam-e-barq-o-tufaan main nahin sochtaa huun kis kharaabe mein mujhe laayaa gayaa apne hone par ba-har-surat pashemaan main nahin"

"vajh-e-qaraar-o-raahat-e-dil-zadagaan hai tu ki main lafz-e-yaqin hai tu ki main harf-e-gumaan hai tu ki main teraa bhi aastaan vahi meraa bhi aashiyaan vahi us ki sahar hai tu ki main us ki azaan hai tu ki main jis ki taraash ke liye khud ko lahu lahu kiyaa ab usi rahguzaar kaa sang-e-giraan hai tu ki main apni khabar se be-khabar apni hi zaat se mafar apni hi daastaan kaa ik harf-e-ziyaan hai tu ki main jis ki nazar mein khaar hai arz-e-vatan ki aabru us kaa hadaf hai tu ki main us ki kamaan hai tu ki main"

"barahnagi kaa mudaavaa koi libaas na thaa khud apne zahr kaa tiryaaq mere paas na thaa sulag rahaa huun khud apni hi aag mein kab se ye mashghala to mire dard ki asaas na thaa tiri navaazish-e-paiham ke naqsh dil mein rahe main be-khabar sahi par aisaa naa-sipaas na thaa har ek sher thaa meraa mire khayaal kaa aks koi kitaab na thi koi iqtibaas na thaa bikhar gae the so khud ko sameT bhi lete ki is yaqin mein shaamil miraa qayaas na thaa"

"dil-e-shikasta bhi thaa koi raazdaan bhi na thaa vo mehrbaan sahi par itnaa mehrbaan bhi na thaa rivaayaton ke tilismaat toD kar ye khulaa gham-e-zamaana koi jaur-e-aasmaan bhi na thaa muaamalaat gham-e-dosti salaamat-baash vo e'tibaar ki andesha-e-gumaan bhi na thaa zamaana-saaz kabhi taba-e-mah-rukhaan bhi na thi ki is mizaaj kaa andaaz-e-dil-baraan bhi na thaa mohabbaton ke qarine badal gae aakhir main is ke dar pe jo pahunchaa to paasbaan bhi na thaa tamaam shahr pe taari hai kaisaa sannaaTaa sukut-e-subh mein aavaaza-e-azaan bhi na thaa"

"dil shaad nahin karte aabaad nahin karte mahsus ye hotaa hai vo yaad nahin karte naashaad zamaane ke dil shaad nahin karte kam-aql parindon ko aazaad nahin karte mohtaaj-e-karam aksar rahte hain gharibon ke jo log gharibon ki imdaad nahin karte kuchh log shikaayat ko haq apnaa samajhte hain kuchh log kabhi tum se fariyaad nahin karte ham apne iraadon mein rakhte hain tavaanaai ham daad ke taalib ko bedaad nahin karte jo aap ki niyyat kaa kuchh ilm hamein hotaa ham apni mohabbat ko barbaad nahin karte is daur-e-siyaasat mein 'mahmud' qayaamat hai ahbaab jo karte hain jallaad nahin karte"

"kyaa apne shahr mein koi aisaa makaan hai samjhun jise ki asl mein vo ik jahaan hai DhunDo haqiqat is mein na afsaana hi koi is kaa bayaan kuchh nahin us kaa bayaan hai apnaa shi'aar ab hai faqat amn-dushmani ye aur baat faakhta apnaa nishaan hai likhne ko ek harf na kahne ko ek lafz yuun to qalam hai haath mein munh mein zabaan hai vo lams jis ke baa'd zamaane guzar gae vo lams ab bhi taaza hai ab bhi javaan hai ho jaaegaa yaqin sabhon kaa hi kal jo aaj meraa yaqin aur sabhon kaa gumaan hai shatranj ki bisaat ki thi apni mez par shatranj ki bisaat ki saaraa jahaan hai"

"charaaghon se kuchh to churaayaa gayaa hai jo thi aag us ko bujhaayaa gayaa hai likhaa thaa jinhein sirf apne lahu se mire un khaton ko jalaayaa gayaa hai hazaaron daf'a us ne ki bevafaai mujhe bevafaa kyon bataayaa gayaa hai mujhe khud nikalnaa paDaa apne ghar se ye mat sochnaa ki bhagaayaa gayaa hai khabar ye mili hai ki mere hi ghar mein kisi ghair ko ab basaayaa gayaa hai mujhe hi sataa kar mujhe hi rulaa kar ye ilzaam mujh par lagaayaa gayaa hai tumhein kyaa bataaun mohabbat mein 'raavat' mujhe kis qadar aazmaayaa gayaa hai"

"bahr-e-rang-e-daastaan rahne diyaa ik tajassus darmiyaan rahne diyaa ab zamin ban kar bichhaa jaataa hai vo main ne jis ko aasmaan rahne diyaa raushni aur khvaab saare hech the apni aankhon mein dhuaan rahne diyaa vo jagah raushan nahin hogi kabhi is mohabbat ko jahaan rahne diyaa maan ne maathaa chuum kar rukhsat kiyaa maamtaa kaa saaebaan rahne diyaa kul milaa ke ye hai raaz-e-tishnagi ham ne dil ko sargiraan rahne diyaa khud hami paamaal Thahre shauq se khush-gumaan ko khush-gumaan rahne diyaa"

"tere tasavvuraat se aage nahin gayaa ye dil tavahhumaat se aage nahin gayaa jo biich raah chhoD gayaa shukr hai vo shakhs meri tavaqqu'aat se aage nahin gayaa shaayad use pasand thiin jhuTi numaaishein lekin main dil ki baat se aage nahin gayaa jazbaat-e-dil ko vo bhi na kuchh Dhang de sakaa main bhi takallufaat se aage nahin gayaa tohfa bhi us ke vaaste kangan liyaa 'zarim' vallah main us ke haath se aage nahin gayaa"

"ajab mushkil ki dil kaa haal aisaa ho gayaa hai sabhi ab puchhte hain mujh se ye kyaa ho gayaa hai main ye samjhaa ki gham kaa ab mudaavaa ho gayaa hai kuredaa zakhm to ye aur taaza ho gayaa hai kabhi fursat mile to khud se main baatein karungaa mujhe khud se mile bhi to zamaana ho gayaa hai magar ab sochtaa huun toD duun saare maraasim magar dil bhi tire gham se shanaasaa ho gayaa hai miri barbaad hasti kaa nazaara dekhne ko vo aae aur gham mein phir izaafa ho gayaa hai isi dariyaa mein ab khud ko Dubonaa chaahtaa huun ki is dil kaa talaatum mein kinaare ho gayaa hai chalo bhi 'qalb' ab tum dusraa dekho Thikaanaa ki is basti mein apnaa sab paraayaa ho gayaa hai"