baiThaa huun siyah-bakht o mukaddar isi ghar mein — Mustafa Zaidi

"sahar jitegi yaa shaam-e-gharibaan dekhte rahnaa ye sar jhukte hain yaa divaar-e-zindaan dekhte rahnaa har ik ahl-e-lahu ne baazi-e-imaan lagaa di hai jo ab ki baar hogaa vo charaaghaan dekhte rahnaa idhar se muddai guzreinge iqaan-e-shariat ke nazar aa jaae shaayad koi insaan dekhte rahnaa use tum log kyaa samjhoge jaisaa ham samajhte hain magar phir bhi kareinge us se paimaan dekhte rahnaa samajh mein aa gayaa teri nigaahon ke ulajhne par bhari mahfil mein sab kaa ham ko hairaan dekhte rahnaa hazaaron mehrbaan is raaste par saath aaeinge miyaan ye dil hai ye jeb o garebaan dekhte rahnaa dabaa rakkho ye lahrein ek din aahista aahista yahi ban jaaeingi tamhid-e-tufaan dekhte rahnaa"

"roktaa hai gham-e-izhaar se pindaar mujhe mere ashkon se chhupaa le mire rukhsaar mujhe dekh ai dasht-e-junun bhed na khulne paae DhunDne aae hain ghar ke dar-o-divaar mujhe si diye honT usi shakhs ki majburi ne jis ki qurbat ne kiyaa mahram-e-asraar mujhe meri aankhon ki taraf dekh rahe hain anjum jaise pahchaan gai ruh-e-shab-taar mujhe jins-e-viraani-e-sahraa meri dukaan mein hai kyaa kharidegaa tire shahr kaa baazaar mujhe jaras-e-gul ne kai baar pukaaraa lekin le gai raah se zanjir ki jhankaar mujhe naavak-e-zulm uThaa dashna-e-andoh sanbhaal lutf ke khanjar-e-be-naam se mat maar mujhe saari duniyaa mein ghani raat kaa sannaaTaa thaa sehn-e-zindaan mein mile subh ke aasaar mujhe"

"hui ijaad nai tarz-e-khushaamad ki nahin kal kaa aaiin hai ab tak sar-e-masnad ki nahin aa gai ai mire saae se bhi bachne vaali rafta rafta tire iqraar ki sarhad ki nahin nahr-e-khun ho chuki, farhaad ki mazduri ko ab ke teshe se mili qimat-e-saaad ki nahin naasehaa is liye main gosh-bar-aavaaz na thaa tiri aavaaz se chhoTaa hai tiraa qad ki nahin"

"jab havaa shab ko badalti hui pahlu aai muddaton apne badan se tiri khushbu aai mere naghmaat ki taqdir na pahunche tujh tak meri fariyaad ki qismat ki tujhe chhu aai apni aankhon se lagaati hain zamaane ke qadam shahr ki raah-guzaaron mein miri khu aai haan namaazon kaa asar dekh liyaa pichhli raat main idhar ghar se gayaa thaa ki udhar tu aai muzhda ai dil kisi pahlu to qaraar aa hi gayaa manzil-e-daar kaTi saa'at-e-gesu aai"

"vo ahd ahd hi kyaa hai jise nibhaao bhi hamaare vaada-e-ulfat ko bhuul jaao bhi bhalaa kahaan ke ham aise gumaan vaale hain hazaar baar ham aaein hamein bulaao bhi bigaD chalaa hai bahut rasm-e-khud-kushi kaa chalan Daraane vaalo kisi roz kar dikhaao bhi nahin ki arz-e-tamannaa pe maan hi jaao hamein is ahd-e-tamannaa mein aazmaao bhi fughaan ki qissa-e-dil sun ke log kahte hain ye kaun si nai uftaad hai haTaao bhi tumhaari niind mein Duubi hui nazar ki qasam hamein ye zid hai ki jaago bhi aur jagaao bhi"

"is qadar ab gham-e-dauraan ki faraavaani hai tu bhi minjumla-e-asbaab-e-pareshaani hai mujh ko is shahr se kuchh duur Thahar jaane do mere ham-raah miri be-sar-o-saamaani hai aankh jhuk jaati hai jab band-e-qabaa khulte hain tujh mein uThte hue khurshid ki uryaani hai ik tiraa lamha-e-iqraar nahin mar sakta aur har lamha zamaane ki tarah faani hai kucha-e-dost se aage hai bahut dasht-e-junun ishq vaalon ne abhi khaak kahaan chhaani hai is tarah hosh ganvaanaa bhi koi baat nahin aur yuun hosh se rahne mein bhi naadaani hai"

"dil shaad nahin karte aabaad nahin karte mahsus ye hotaa hai vo yaad nahin karte naashaad zamaane ke dil shaad nahin karte kam-aql parindon ko aazaad nahin karte mohtaaj-e-karam aksar rahte hain gharibon ke jo log gharibon ki imdaad nahin karte kuchh log shikaayat ko haq apnaa samajhte hain kuchh log kabhi tum se fariyaad nahin karte ham apne iraadon mein rakhte hain tavaanaai ham daad ke taalib ko bedaad nahin karte jo aap ki niyyat kaa kuchh ilm hamein hotaa ham apni mohabbat ko barbaad nahin karte is daur-e-siyaasat mein 'mahmud' qayaamat hai ahbaab jo karte hain jallaad nahin karte"

"kyaa apne shahr mein koi aisaa makaan hai samjhun jise ki asl mein vo ik jahaan hai DhunDo haqiqat is mein na afsaana hi koi is kaa bayaan kuchh nahin us kaa bayaan hai apnaa shi'aar ab hai faqat amn-dushmani ye aur baat faakhta apnaa nishaan hai likhne ko ek harf na kahne ko ek lafz yuun to qalam hai haath mein munh mein zabaan hai vo lams jis ke baa'd zamaane guzar gae vo lams ab bhi taaza hai ab bhi javaan hai ho jaaegaa yaqin sabhon kaa hi kal jo aaj meraa yaqin aur sabhon kaa gumaan hai shatranj ki bisaat ki thi apni mez par shatranj ki bisaat ki saaraa jahaan hai"

"charaaghon se kuchh to churaayaa gayaa hai jo thi aag us ko bujhaayaa gayaa hai likhaa thaa jinhein sirf apne lahu se mire un khaton ko jalaayaa gayaa hai hazaaron daf'a us ne ki bevafaai mujhe bevafaa kyon bataayaa gayaa hai mujhe khud nikalnaa paDaa apne ghar se ye mat sochnaa ki bhagaayaa gayaa hai khabar ye mili hai ki mere hi ghar mein kisi ghair ko ab basaayaa gayaa hai mujhe hi sataa kar mujhe hi rulaa kar ye ilzaam mujh par lagaayaa gayaa hai tumhein kyaa bataaun mohabbat mein 'raavat' mujhe kis qadar aazmaayaa gayaa hai"

"bahr-e-rang-e-daastaan rahne diyaa ik tajassus darmiyaan rahne diyaa ab zamin ban kar bichhaa jaataa hai vo main ne jis ko aasmaan rahne diyaa raushni aur khvaab saare hech the apni aankhon mein dhuaan rahne diyaa vo jagah raushan nahin hogi kabhi is mohabbat ko jahaan rahne diyaa maan ne maathaa chuum kar rukhsat kiyaa maamtaa kaa saaebaan rahne diyaa kul milaa ke ye hai raaz-e-tishnagi ham ne dil ko sargiraan rahne diyaa khud hami paamaal Thahre shauq se khush-gumaan ko khush-gumaan rahne diyaa"

"tere tasavvuraat se aage nahin gayaa ye dil tavahhumaat se aage nahin gayaa jo biich raah chhoD gayaa shukr hai vo shakhs meri tavaqqu'aat se aage nahin gayaa shaayad use pasand thiin jhuTi numaaishein lekin main dil ki baat se aage nahin gayaa jazbaat-e-dil ko vo bhi na kuchh Dhang de sakaa main bhi takallufaat se aage nahin gayaa tohfa bhi us ke vaaste kangan liyaa 'zarim' vallah main us ke haath se aage nahin gayaa"

"ajab mushkil ki dil kaa haal aisaa ho gayaa hai sabhi ab puchhte hain mujh se ye kyaa ho gayaa hai main ye samjhaa ki gham kaa ab mudaavaa ho gayaa hai kuredaa zakhm to ye aur taaza ho gayaa hai kabhi fursat mile to khud se main baatein karungaa mujhe khud se mile bhi to zamaana ho gayaa hai magar ab sochtaa huun toD duun saare maraasim magar dil bhi tire gham se shanaasaa ho gayaa hai miri barbaad hasti kaa nazaara dekhne ko vo aae aur gham mein phir izaafa ho gayaa hai isi dariyaa mein ab khud ko Dubonaa chaahtaa huun ki is dil kaa talaatum mein kinaare ho gayaa hai chalo bhi 'qalb' ab tum dusraa dekho Thikaanaa ki is basti mein apnaa sab paraayaa ho gayaa hai"