baazi agarche ziist ki ham haar to gae — Nafas Ambalvi

"kaun si shaakh kaa pattaa thaa haraa bhuul gayaa peD se Tuut ke main apnaa pata bhuul gayaa main koi vaa’da-faraamosh nahin huun phir bhi mujh pe ilzaam hai main apnaa kahaa bhuul gayaa apne bachchon ke khilaune to use yaad rahe ghar mein bimaar paDi maan ki davaa bhuul gayaa kar to diin main ne charaaghon ki qataarein raushan hai zamaane ki magar tez havaa bhuul gayaa khauf-e-dozakh se Daraataa rahaa vaa'iz mujh ko aur khud apne gunaahon ki sazaa bhuul gayaa tujh se kuchh kaam thaa lekin tire ghar ke aage ab khaDaa soch rahaa huun ki main kyaa bhuul gayaa be-khudi had se jo guzri to main ik roz 'nafas' ghar se kyaa niklaa ki phir ghar kaa pata bhuul gayaa"

"dar-ba-dar ho ke dar se TuuT gayaa main to jaise safar se TuuT gayaa Dhal gai shaam ab kahaan jaaun jo ta'alluq thaa ghar se TuuT gayaa kuchh khabar bhi hai in havaaon ko zard paTTaa shajar se TuuT gayaa koi had bhi to ho bikharne ki khvaab dekhaa to Dar se TuuT gayaa tum ne naahaq uThaa liye patthar aaina to nazar se TuuT gayaa ahd ye thaa ki saath chalnaa hai phir bashar hi bashar se TuuT gayaa"

"pahle samundaron mein utaaraa gayaa mujhe phir pyaas ki hadon se guzaaraa gayaa mujhe dekhaa to kuchh nahin thaa vahaan dasht ke sivaa phir bhi lagaa ki jaise pukaaraa gayaa mujhe 'umr-e-ravaan ne puchh liyaa mujh se ek din kyon be-dili ke saath guzaaraa gayaa mujhe pahle vo meri maut pe khud mutmain huaa phir daar se zamin pe utaaraa gayaa mujhe baazi ko jitne ki havas mein bisaat par afsos jaan-bujh ke haaraa gayaa mujhe yuun hi main us ki bazm se uTh kar nahin gayaa dar-asl pahle us kaa ishaara gayaa mujhe kuchh main bhi tez-gaam nahin thaa kuchh ai 'nafas' pur-khaar raaston se guzaaraa gayaa mujhe"

"jitne bhi aae zinat-e-baazaar ho gae ik ham hi the jo saahib-e-kirdaar ho gae jhuTon pe tere shahr mein ilzaam tak nahin aur ham ne sach kahaa to gunahgaar ho gae jab bhi kahin charaagh jalaa hai sukut-e-shab sab log aandhiyon ke taraf-daar ho gae vo zaalimon ke saath hain mazlum be-amaan kaise hamaare ahd ke akhbaar ho gae khatre mein hai ab apne qabile ki aabru jo mukhbiron mein the vahi sardaar ho gae Tapkaa lahu 'nafas' ke badan se to yuun huaa qatre jahaan-jahaan gire ash'aar ho gae"

"jab se naa-daanon ne khud ko faani kahnaa chhoD diyaa ham ne apni hairat ko hairaani kahnaa chhoD diyaa dariyaa teri 'azmat par bhi ye ilzaam to aaegaa aakhir pyaase logon ne kyon paani kahnaa chhoD diyaa socho kitni maayusi kaa mausam hai is basti mein logon ne be-maa'ni ko be-maa'ni kahnaa chhoD diyaa meraa in tufaanon se to bas itnaa saa jhagDaa hai main ne tez havaaon ko tufaani kahnaa chhoD diyaa jin ki raa'naai ke pichhe sau-sau jhuuT ki partein hain ham ne aise chehron ko nuraani kahnaa chhoD diyaa maanaa us ne sabz fazaaein sahraa sahraa kar Daalin tum ne kyon viraani ko viraani kahnaa chhoD diyaa mere gham kaa shaayad tum ko is se kuchh andaaza ho main ne us ki chunar ko ab dhaani kahnaa chhoD diyaa"

"thakan se tan-badan TuuTaa paDaa hai masaafat ko magar rasta paDaa hai lahu se tar-ba-tar hain paanv lekin hamein har haal mein chalnaa paDaa hai yahaan main tishnagi se jaan-balab huun udhar milon abhi sahraa paDaa hai koi saansein bhalaa kab tak kharide ye saudaa to bahut mahngaa paDaa hai ye raat ab tak nahin suljhi hai mujh se udhar din bhi abhi uljhaa paDaa hai main aakhir ab ise kaise sanbhaalun yahaan to ghar kaa ghar bikhraa paDaa hai bahut bechain saa rahtaa huun din-bhar sunaa hai gaanv mein sukhaa paDaa hai bulaataa hai mujhe aavaaz de kar vo mere ghar kaa jo malba paDaa hai miraa chandaa gayaa pardes jab se ye ghar aangan bahut suunaa paDaa hai bahut bezaar se lagte ho tum bhi asar tum par 'nafas' gahraa paDaa hai"

"dil shaad nahin karte aabaad nahin karte mahsus ye hotaa hai vo yaad nahin karte naashaad zamaane ke dil shaad nahin karte kam-aql parindon ko aazaad nahin karte mohtaaj-e-karam aksar rahte hain gharibon ke jo log gharibon ki imdaad nahin karte kuchh log shikaayat ko haq apnaa samajhte hain kuchh log kabhi tum se fariyaad nahin karte ham apne iraadon mein rakhte hain tavaanaai ham daad ke taalib ko bedaad nahin karte jo aap ki niyyat kaa kuchh ilm hamein hotaa ham apni mohabbat ko barbaad nahin karte is daur-e-siyaasat mein 'mahmud' qayaamat hai ahbaab jo karte hain jallaad nahin karte"

"bahr-e-rang-e-daastaan rahne diyaa ik tajassus darmiyaan rahne diyaa ab zamin ban kar bichhaa jaataa hai vo main ne jis ko aasmaan rahne diyaa raushni aur khvaab saare hech the apni aankhon mein dhuaan rahne diyaa vo jagah raushan nahin hogi kabhi is mohabbat ko jahaan rahne diyaa maan ne maathaa chuum kar rukhsat kiyaa maamtaa kaa saaebaan rahne diyaa kul milaa ke ye hai raaz-e-tishnagi ham ne dil ko sargiraan rahne diyaa khud hami paamaal Thahre shauq se khush-gumaan ko khush-gumaan rahne diyaa"

"tere tasavvuraat se aage nahin gayaa ye dil tavahhumaat se aage nahin gayaa jo biich raah chhoD gayaa shukr hai vo shakhs meri tavaqqu'aat se aage nahin gayaa shaayad use pasand thiin jhuTi numaaishein lekin main dil ki baat se aage nahin gayaa jazbaat-e-dil ko vo bhi na kuchh Dhang de sakaa main bhi takallufaat se aage nahin gayaa tohfa bhi us ke vaaste kangan liyaa 'zarim' vallah main us ke haath se aage nahin gayaa"

"ajab mushkil ki dil kaa haal aisaa ho gayaa hai sabhi ab puchhte hain mujh se ye kyaa ho gayaa hai main ye samjhaa ki gham kaa ab mudaavaa ho gayaa hai kuredaa zakhm to ye aur taaza ho gayaa hai kabhi fursat mile to khud se main baatein karungaa mujhe khud se mile bhi to zamaana ho gayaa hai magar ab sochtaa huun toD duun saare maraasim magar dil bhi tire gham se shanaasaa ho gayaa hai miri barbaad hasti kaa nazaara dekhne ko vo aae aur gham mein phir izaafa ho gayaa hai isi dariyaa mein ab khud ko Dubonaa chaahtaa huun ki is dil kaa talaatum mein kinaare ho gayaa hai chalo bhi 'qalb' ab tum dusraa dekho Thikaanaa ki is basti mein apnaa sab paraayaa ho gayaa hai"

"na koi dost ho meraa na ho adu meraa tum apne munh se agar kah do mujh ko tu meraa fasurdagi mein junun-e-havaa-e-gul yaani khizaan ke daur mein saudaa-e-rang-o-bu meraa jo tum nahin to bahaar-e-jinaan mein khaak nahin bahut vasia hai daamaan-e-aarzu meraa nibhegi ai dil-e-aavaara ab na tujh se miri bas aaj se na main teraa huun aur na tu meraa banaa rahe hain vo jalve ki apne tasvirein dikhaa dikhaa ke tamaashaa-e-rang-o-bu meraa kisi ki zulf-e-siyah kah rahi hai khul khul kar ghaTaa ne rang uDaayaa hai hu-ba-hu meraa mah-e-siyaam kaa aur intizaam kyaa karte janaab-e-shaikh uDaa le gae subu meraa jafaa kaa rang judaa hai vafaa kaa rang judaa malo na dast-e-hinaai mein tum lahu meraa taDap rahi hai jo abr-e-siyaah mein bijli firaaq mein yahi naqsha thaa hu-ba-hu meraa suhaani raat hai chhiTki hai chaandni 'muztar' miri nigaah mein phirtaa hai maah-ru meraa"

"khurshid jhaanktaa hai ridaa-e-sahaab se yaa nuur chhan rahaa hai kisi ke naqaab se baahar jo aaj dekh liyaa hai hijaab se suraj laraz rahaa hai tumhaare shabaab se naaseh Daraa rahe the khudaa ke 'azaab se khud hi janaab baaz na aae sharaab se lamhe guzar chuke hain jo phulon ki sej par is daur-e-pur-khatar mein vo lagte hain khvaab se khud ko to pahle dekhiye phir kahiye bevafaa bas itni iltijaa hai hamaari janaab se har roz ik na ik nai zid hai zabaan par tang aa gayaa huun main dil-e-khaana-kharaab se ahl-e-vafaa mein meraa vahi naam paD gayaa tum ne mujhe navaaz diyaa jis khitaab se kin manzilon pe meraa nishaan-e-qadam nahin puchho miraa maqaam mah-o-aaftaab se jo husn kaa kahin bhi tahaffuz na kar sake phir kaun saa hai faaeda aisi naqaab se saaya bhi jis hasin kaa DhunDe na mil sakaa be-misl vo khudaa ke hue intikhaab se sun kar hamaare she'r vo kuchh muskuraa diye 'faaruq' aaj ham bhi rahe kaamyaab se"