ye phailti shikastagi ehsaas ki taraf — Adil Mansuri

"pahlu ke aar-paar guzartaa huaa saa ho ik shakhs aaine mein utartaa huaa saa ho jiitaa huaa saa ho kabhi martaa huaa saa ho ik shahr apne aap se Dartaa huaa saa ho saare kabira aap hi kartaa huaa saa ho ilzaam dusre hi pe dhartaa huaa saa ho har ik nayaa khayaal jo Tapke hai zehn se yuun lag rahaa hai jaise ki bartaa huaa saa ho qailula kar rahe hon kisi niim ke tale maidaan mein rakhsh-e-umr bhi chartaa huaa saa ho maashuq aisaa DhunDiye qahtur-rijaal mein har baat mein agartaa magartaa huaa saa ho phir baad mein vo qatl bhi kar de to harj kyaa lekin vo pahle pyaar bhi kartaa huaa saa ho gar daad tu na de na sahi gaaliyaan sahi apnaa bhi koi aib hunartaa huaa saa ho"

"jo chiiz thi kamre mein vo be-rabt paDi thi tanhaai-e-shab band-e-qabaa khol rahi thi aavaaz ki divaar bhi chup-chaap khaDi thi khiDki se jo dekhaa to gali uungh rahi thi baalon ne tiraa lams to mahsus kiyaa thaa lekin ye khabar dil ne baDi der se di thi haathon mein nayaa chaand paDaa haanp rahaa thaa raanon pe barahna si nami reing rahi thi yaadon ne use toD diyaa maar ke patthar aaine ki khandaq mein jo parchhaain paDi thi duniyaa ki guzarte hue paDti thiin nigaahein shishe ki jagah khiDki mein rusvaai jaDi thi TuuTi hui mehraab se gumbad ke khanDar tak ik buDhe moazzin ki sadaa guunj rahi thi"

"har khvaab kaali raat ke saanche mein Dhaal kar ye kaun chhup gayaa hai sitaare uchhaal kar aaise Dare hue hain zamaane ki chaal se ghar mein bhi paanv rakhte hain ham to sambhaal kar khaana-kharaabiyon mein tiraa bhi pata nahin tujh ko bhi kyaa milaa hamein ghar se nikaal kar jhulsaa gayaa hai kaaghzi chehron ki daastaan jalti hui khamoshiyaan lafzon mein Dhaal kar ye phuul khud hi suukh kar aaeinge khaak par tu apne haath se na inhein paaemaal kar"

"phir kisi khvaab ke parde se pukaaraa jaaun phir kisi yaad ki talvaar se maaraa jaaun phir koi vusat-e-aafaaq pe saaya Daale phir kisi aankh ke nuqte mein utaaraa jaaun din ke hangaamon mein daaman kahin mailaa ho jaae raat ki nuqrai aatish mein nikhaaraa jaaun khushk khoe hue gumnaam jazire ki tarah dard ke kaale samundar se ubhaaraa jaaun apni khoi hui jannat kaa talabgaar banun dast-e-yazdaan se gunahgaar sanvaaraa jaaun"

"saDkon par suraj utraa saaya saaya TuuT gayaa jab gul kaa siina chiraa khushbu kaa kaanTaa niklaa tu kis ke kamre mein thi main tere kamre mein thaa khiDki ne aankhein kholi darvaaze kaa dil dhaDkaa dil ki andhi khandaq mein khvaahish kaa taaraa TuuTaa jism ke kaale jangal mein lazzat kaa chitaa lapkaa phir baalon mein raat hui phir haathon mein chaand khilaa"

"zamin chhoD kar main kidhar jaaungaa andheron ke andar utar jaaungaa miri pattiyaan saari sukhi huiin nae mausamon mein bikhar jaaungaa agar aa gayaa aaina saamne to apne hi chehre se Dar jaaungaa vo ik aankh jo meri apni bhi hai na aai nazar to kidhar jaaungaa vo ik shakhs aavaaz degaa agar main khaali saDak par Thahar jaaungaa palaT kar na paayaa kisi ko agar to apni hi aahaT se Dar jaaungaa tiri zaat mein saans li hai sadaa tujhe chhoD kar main kidhar jaaungaa"

"dil shaad nahin karte aabaad nahin karte mahsus ye hotaa hai vo yaad nahin karte naashaad zamaane ke dil shaad nahin karte kam-aql parindon ko aazaad nahin karte mohtaaj-e-karam aksar rahte hain gharibon ke jo log gharibon ki imdaad nahin karte kuchh log shikaayat ko haq apnaa samajhte hain kuchh log kabhi tum se fariyaad nahin karte ham apne iraadon mein rakhte hain tavaanaai ham daad ke taalib ko bedaad nahin karte jo aap ki niyyat kaa kuchh ilm hamein hotaa ham apni mohabbat ko barbaad nahin karte is daur-e-siyaasat mein 'mahmud' qayaamat hai ahbaab jo karte hain jallaad nahin karte"

"kyaa apne shahr mein koi aisaa makaan hai samjhun jise ki asl mein vo ik jahaan hai DhunDo haqiqat is mein na afsaana hi koi is kaa bayaan kuchh nahin us kaa bayaan hai apnaa shi'aar ab hai faqat amn-dushmani ye aur baat faakhta apnaa nishaan hai likhne ko ek harf na kahne ko ek lafz yuun to qalam hai haath mein munh mein zabaan hai vo lams jis ke baa'd zamaane guzar gae vo lams ab bhi taaza hai ab bhi javaan hai ho jaaegaa yaqin sabhon kaa hi kal jo aaj meraa yaqin aur sabhon kaa gumaan hai shatranj ki bisaat ki thi apni mez par shatranj ki bisaat ki saaraa jahaan hai"

"charaaghon se kuchh to churaayaa gayaa hai jo thi aag us ko bujhaayaa gayaa hai likhaa thaa jinhein sirf apne lahu se mire un khaton ko jalaayaa gayaa hai hazaaron daf'a us ne ki bevafaai mujhe bevafaa kyon bataayaa gayaa hai mujhe khud nikalnaa paDaa apne ghar se ye mat sochnaa ki bhagaayaa gayaa hai khabar ye mili hai ki mere hi ghar mein kisi ghair ko ab basaayaa gayaa hai mujhe hi sataa kar mujhe hi rulaa kar ye ilzaam mujh par lagaayaa gayaa hai tumhein kyaa bataaun mohabbat mein 'raavat' mujhe kis qadar aazmaayaa gayaa hai"

"bahr-e-rang-e-daastaan rahne diyaa ik tajassus darmiyaan rahne diyaa ab zamin ban kar bichhaa jaataa hai vo main ne jis ko aasmaan rahne diyaa raushni aur khvaab saare hech the apni aankhon mein dhuaan rahne diyaa vo jagah raushan nahin hogi kabhi is mohabbat ko jahaan rahne diyaa maan ne maathaa chuum kar rukhsat kiyaa maamtaa kaa saaebaan rahne diyaa kul milaa ke ye hai raaz-e-tishnagi ham ne dil ko sargiraan rahne diyaa khud hami paamaal Thahre shauq se khush-gumaan ko khush-gumaan rahne diyaa"

"tere tasavvuraat se aage nahin gayaa ye dil tavahhumaat se aage nahin gayaa jo biich raah chhoD gayaa shukr hai vo shakhs meri tavaqqu'aat se aage nahin gayaa shaayad use pasand thiin jhuTi numaaishein lekin main dil ki baat se aage nahin gayaa jazbaat-e-dil ko vo bhi na kuchh Dhang de sakaa main bhi takallufaat se aage nahin gayaa tohfa bhi us ke vaaste kangan liyaa 'zarim' vallah main us ke haath se aage nahin gayaa"

"ajab mushkil ki dil kaa haal aisaa ho gayaa hai sabhi ab puchhte hain mujh se ye kyaa ho gayaa hai main ye samjhaa ki gham kaa ab mudaavaa ho gayaa hai kuredaa zakhm to ye aur taaza ho gayaa hai kabhi fursat mile to khud se main baatein karungaa mujhe khud se mile bhi to zamaana ho gayaa hai magar ab sochtaa huun toD duun saare maraasim magar dil bhi tire gham se shanaasaa ho gayaa hai miri barbaad hasti kaa nazaara dekhne ko vo aae aur gham mein phir izaafa ho gayaa hai isi dariyaa mein ab khud ko Dubonaa chaahtaa huun ki is dil kaa talaatum mein kinaare ho gayaa hai chalo bhi 'qalb' ab tum dusraa dekho Thikaanaa ki is basti mein apnaa sab paraayaa ho gayaa hai"