phir kisi khvaab ke parde se pukaaraa jaaun — Adil Mansuri

"pahlu ke aar-paar guzartaa huaa saa ho ik shakhs aaine mein utartaa huaa saa ho jiitaa huaa saa ho kabhi martaa huaa saa ho ik shahr apne aap se Dartaa huaa saa ho saare kabira aap hi kartaa huaa saa ho ilzaam dusre hi pe dhartaa huaa saa ho har ik nayaa khayaal jo Tapke hai zehn se yuun lag rahaa hai jaise ki bartaa huaa saa ho qailula kar rahe hon kisi niim ke tale maidaan mein rakhsh-e-umr bhi chartaa huaa saa ho maashuq aisaa DhunDiye qahtur-rijaal mein har baat mein agartaa magartaa huaa saa ho phir baad mein vo qatl bhi kar de to harj kyaa lekin vo pahle pyaar bhi kartaa huaa saa ho gar daad tu na de na sahi gaaliyaan sahi apnaa bhi koi aib hunartaa huaa saa ho"

"jo chiiz thi kamre mein vo be-rabt paDi thi tanhaai-e-shab band-e-qabaa khol rahi thi aavaaz ki divaar bhi chup-chaap khaDi thi khiDki se jo dekhaa to gali uungh rahi thi baalon ne tiraa lams to mahsus kiyaa thaa lekin ye khabar dil ne baDi der se di thi haathon mein nayaa chaand paDaa haanp rahaa thaa raanon pe barahna si nami reing rahi thi yaadon ne use toD diyaa maar ke patthar aaine ki khandaq mein jo parchhaain paDi thi duniyaa ki guzarte hue paDti thiin nigaahein shishe ki jagah khiDki mein rusvaai jaDi thi TuuTi hui mehraab se gumbad ke khanDar tak ik buDhe moazzin ki sadaa guunj rahi thi"

"har khvaab kaali raat ke saanche mein Dhaal kar ye kaun chhup gayaa hai sitaare uchhaal kar aaise Dare hue hain zamaane ki chaal se ghar mein bhi paanv rakhte hain ham to sambhaal kar khaana-kharaabiyon mein tiraa bhi pata nahin tujh ko bhi kyaa milaa hamein ghar se nikaal kar jhulsaa gayaa hai kaaghzi chehron ki daastaan jalti hui khamoshiyaan lafzon mein Dhaal kar ye phuul khud hi suukh kar aaeinge khaak par tu apne haath se na inhein paaemaal kar"

"saDkon par suraj utraa saaya saaya TuuT gayaa jab gul kaa siina chiraa khushbu kaa kaanTaa niklaa tu kis ke kamre mein thi main tere kamre mein thaa khiDki ne aankhein kholi darvaaze kaa dil dhaDkaa dil ki andhi khandaq mein khvaahish kaa taaraa TuuTaa jism ke kaale jangal mein lazzat kaa chitaa lapkaa phir baalon mein raat hui phir haathon mein chaand khilaa"

"ek qatra ashk kaa chhalkaa to dariyaa kar diyaa ek musht-e-khaak jo bikhri to sahraa kar diyaa mere TuuTe hausle ke par nikalte dekh kar us ne divaaron ko apni aur unchaa kar diyaa vaardaat-e-qalb likkhi ham ne farzi naam se aur haathon-haath us ko khud hi le jaa kar diyaa us ki naaraazi kaa suraj jab savaa neze pe thaa apne harf-e-ijz hi ne sar pe saaya kar diyaa duniyaa bhar ki khaak koi chhaantaa phirtaa hai ab aap ne dar se uThaa kar kaisaa rusvaa kar diyaa ab na koi khauf dil mein aur na aankhon mein umiid tu ne marg-e-naa-gahaan bimaar achchhaa kar diyaa bhuul jaa ye kal tire naqsh-e-qadam the chaand par dekh un haathon ko kis ne aaj kaasa kar diyaa ham to kahne jaa rahe the hamza-e-ye vassalaam biich mein us ne achaanak nun-ghunna kar diyaa ham ko gaali ke liye bhi lab hilaa sakte nahin ghair ko bosa diyaa to munh se dikhlaa kar diyaa tirgi ki bhi koi had hoti hai aakhir miyaan surkh parcham ko jalaa kar hi ujaalaa kar diyaa bazm mein ahl-e-sukhan taqtia farmaate rahe aur ham ne apne dil kaa bojh halkaa kar diyaa jaane kis ke muntazir baiThe hain jhaaDu pher kar dil se har khvaahish ko 'aadil' ham ne chaltaa kar diyaa"

"zamin chhoD kar main kidhar jaaungaa andheron ke andar utar jaaungaa miri pattiyaan saari sukhi huiin nae mausamon mein bikhar jaaungaa agar aa gayaa aaina saamne to apne hi chehre se Dar jaaungaa vo ik aankh jo meri apni bhi hai na aai nazar to kidhar jaaungaa vo ik shakhs aavaaz degaa agar main khaali saDak par Thahar jaaungaa palaT kar na paayaa kisi ko agar to apni hi aahaT se Dar jaaungaa tiri zaat mein saans li hai sadaa tujhe chhoD kar main kidhar jaaungaa"

"vo mujhe zindagi bataataa hai phir bhalaa kyon nazar churaataa hai main usi ko uThaa rahaa thaa par vo mujhe hi faqat giraataa hai yaad us ko kiyaa yahaan main ne par mujhe vo vahaan bhulaataa hai raaz saare bataa diye main ne kyon magar raaz vo chhupaataa hai log masruf hain mohabbat mein aur vo dil miraa dukhaataa hai"

"dil shaad nahin karte aabaad nahin karte mahsus ye hotaa hai vo yaad nahin karte naashaad zamaane ke dil shaad nahin karte kam-aql parindon ko aazaad nahin karte mohtaaj-e-karam aksar rahte hain gharibon ke jo log gharibon ki imdaad nahin karte kuchh log shikaayat ko haq apnaa samajhte hain kuchh log kabhi tum se fariyaad nahin karte ham apne iraadon mein rakhte hain tavaanaai ham daad ke taalib ko bedaad nahin karte jo aap ki niyyat kaa kuchh ilm hamein hotaa ham apni mohabbat ko barbaad nahin karte is daur-e-siyaasat mein 'mahmud' qayaamat hai ahbaab jo karte hain jallaad nahin karte"

"Tuut kar ab sanvar gayaa huun main is tarah se bikhar gayaa huun main jo tire naam ki gali hai vo us gali se guzar gayaa huun main yaadein teri sameT laayaa huun aaj jab se udhar gayaa huun main khud mukarnaa sikhaa diyaa us ne phir kahaa ki mukar gayaa huun main kal talak jo na kar sakaa thaa main aaj vo kaam kar gayaa huun main yuun kahin main nahin Thahartaa par tere dar par Thahar gayaa huun main"

"bistar-e-karb pe jab niind jalaai main ne tab kisi khvaab ki buniyaad uThaai main ne zakhm aise the ki har shakhs ke aage rakkhe baat aisi thi ki khud se bhi chhupaai main ne hurmat-e-gham ke liye khud ko aziyyat bakhshi phir usi dard se taskin bhi paai main ne main ne zakhmon ko kuredaa unhein taaza rakkhaa tab kahin dasht mein ki naghma-saraai main ne apni khiDki se yunhi khud ko pukaaraa kal shab aur phir khud ko vo aavaaz sunaai main ne jaane vaale se rag-e-jaan kaa bhi rishta thaa 'samir' ye samajhne mein bahut der lagaai main ne"

"zindagi dushvaar hogi ye kabhi sochaa na thaa vo bagule gham ke uTThe jin kaa andesha na thaa saamne tum aa gae ho to bataa duun jaan-e-jaan jaise dil dhaDkaa thaa ab ki vaise dil dhaDkaa na thaa ye iraada kar liyaa thaa ham na bichhDeinge kabhi TuTeinge ik pal mein rishte ye kabhi sochaa na thaa yaad-e-maazi miT rahi hai vaqt ki raftaar se ab tasavvur mein hamaare koi bhi chehra na thaa sakht hairat ho rahi hai dekh kar apnaa vajud dhuup mein the sab ke saaye par miraa saayaa na thaa shauq-e-manzil dekh meri dekh meraa hausla shahr-e-dil ke raaston mein main kabhi Thahraa na thaa 'qalb' ko sahraa-navardi raas kyaa aati bhalaa vo kabhi aavaargi mein dar-ba-dar bhaTkaa na thaa"

"jahaan-e-dard-o-gham hai aur main huun tiraa naqsh-e-qadam hai aur main huun kisi ki aankh nam hai aur main huun vufur-e-shauq kam hai aur main huun mujhe hai daulat-e-kaunain haasil mire rab kaa karam hai aur main huun main apne aap ko pahchaantaa huun miraa apnaa bharam hai aur main huun yahi kyaa kam hai duniyaa-e-vafaa mein mujhe ehsaas-e-gham hai aur main huun kisi ki yaad kaa ehsaan hai mujh par sukun-e-dil baham hai aur main huun mujhe 'mahmud' koi Dar nahin hai miraa apnaa qalam hai aur main huun"