is be-khudi mein rukhsat khuddaari ho gai hai — Mohammad Aazam

"hone ko ab kyaa dekhiye kyaa kuchh hai aur kyaa kuchh nahin manzar abhi hai saamne vo bhi ki jab thaa kuchh nahin us ki hinaa par vaar de fil-faur dil ki saltanat pyaare kisi ke haath mein taa-der rahtaa kuchh nahin mat jaan dil ke saamne kaafi hai ik chehra tiraa aise andhere ke liye itnaa ujaalaa kuchh nahin kitne gharaunde ret ke maujein bahaa kar le gaiin har baar ik dil ke sivaa aise mein TuuTaa kuchh nahin surat ko maani ke taiin darkaar hai kuchh faasla jab tak thaa aage aankh ke main ne to dekhaa kuchh nahin"

"ye nashsha-e-aagaahi khatarnaak hai sar mein TuuTe hain mire paanv isi raahguzar mein rim-jhim ke aqab-zaar mein baaraan hai abhi aag achchhaa hai na dekhe vo mire dida-e-tar mein sarmaaya-e-jaan yuun na uThaa saare hijaabaat tu aankh ke pardon ki badaulat hai nazar mein aansu thaa vo niklaa to gayaa toD ke har band khushbu thaa ki ghar chhoD ke bhi rahtaa hai ghar mein us baargah-e-naaz se ham se fuqaraa ko khairaat to milti hai vale kaasa-e-sar mein rahti hain mire saath vo aagaah nigaahein kuchh farq na thaa varna mire aib-o-hunar mein"

"subuk mujh ko mohabbat mein ye kaj-uftaad kartaa hai jo main hargiz na kartaa vo miraa ham-zaad kartaa hai bikhar kar bhi usi ko DhunDhti hain har taraf aankhein jo mujh ko ik nigah mein ik se laa-taadaad kartaa hai hui hain shor-e-dil mein gharq taabirein sadaaon ki magar itni khabar hai koi kuchh irshaad kartaa hai qayaamat hai jo ab ye khuftagaan-e-khaak-e-dil jaagein koi is kohna viraane ko phir aabaad kartaa hai kahaa ho kuchh kabhi mujh se to ai chaaragaro jaanun main kyaa kah duun dil-e-bimaar kis ko yaad kartaa hai saraamad ishq hai paataa hai koi dil nasibon se phir apne vaaste maashuq khud ijaad kartaa hai buraa kahnaa mujhe us kaa vazifa hai to hone do vo khud ko yuun mire aaseb se aazaad kartaa hai"

"talaf karegi kab tak aarzu ki jaan aarzu taDap rahi hai har taraf lahuluhaan aarzu phiraa ke dida-e-tapaan mein mom ke mujassame kahaan kahaan karegi diid kaa ziyaan aarzu zaraa saa haath kyaa lagaa habaab saa bikhar gayaa jise samajh rahi thi ek aasmaan aarzu tu chashm hi mein rah agar pasand hai kushaadgi ki dil hai tang aur is mein yak jahaan aarzu isi ke hain sabab se sab ye hijr ki saubatein kahaan se aa gai hamaare darmiyaan aarzu tu aaftaab hai main gul duaa tire sukun ki kisi ki shaan qahr hai kisi ki shaan aarzu ilaahi khair itne sin pe aandhiyon ki dosti abhi to siikh paai bhi nahin uDaan aarzu shajar hajar zamin aasmaan sab ko zoaf hai magar ye ik javaan ki rahi javaan aarzu"

"mohabbat chaahti hai jis ko afsaana banaa denaa use kaafi nahin hotaa hai divaana banaa denaa par-e-gul se judaa ham ne na dekhaa barg-e-bulbul ko nazar mein aa gayaa surat ko be-maanaa banaa denaa huaa thaa dil jo khaali do ghaDi ko ham na samjhe the ki ho jaaegaa ye kaabe ko but-khaana banaa denaa kisi ne bhi na dekhaa iztiraab-e-tishnagi meraa agar dekhaa to bas shishe ko paimaana banaa denaa nahin ab chaahtaa ye vahshi-e-be-khaanumaan teraa ki aanaa aur khaak-e-paa se kaashaana banaa denaa kisi ik tegh-e-jauhar-daar ko faazil jilaa de kar use aasaan hai basti ko viraana banaa denaa ham apni jaan se dete tumhein sadqa mohabbat kaa magar tum ne to chaahaa is ko jurmaana banaa denaa"

"kuchh gharaz ham ko nahin hai ki kahaan le jaae chal diye bas dil-e-divaana jahaan le jaae vo gali khuld se behtar hai bas itnaa sun kar koi vaaqif ho to ham ko bhi vahaan le jaae meri aavaaz hui jaati hai us ki aavaaz ab hai kyaa duur ki us tak ye fughaan le jaae mauj-e-sarkash ko khabar-daar kiyaa thaa ham ne us ko jaanaa thaa jahaan ju-e-ravaan le jaae gul nahin deinge kabhi bulbul-e-muhtaaj ko zar khvaah sarmaaya ye sab baad-e-khizaan le jaae ishq mein us ke bas ik jaan hai baaqi ye bhi dekhiye kab ghazab-e-ham-vatanaan le jaae meri baatein hi khush aati hain use jaise koi kar ke aatish nazar-andaaz dhuaan le jaae"

"vo mujhe zindagi bataataa hai phir bhalaa kyon nazar churaataa hai main usi ko uThaa rahaa thaa par vo mujhe hi faqat giraataa hai yaad us ko kiyaa yahaan main ne par mujhe vo vahaan bhulaataa hai raaz saare bataa diye main ne kyon magar raaz vo chhupaataa hai log masruf hain mohabbat mein aur vo dil miraa dukhaataa hai"

"dil shaad nahin karte aabaad nahin karte mahsus ye hotaa hai vo yaad nahin karte naashaad zamaane ke dil shaad nahin karte kam-aql parindon ko aazaad nahin karte mohtaaj-e-karam aksar rahte hain gharibon ke jo log gharibon ki imdaad nahin karte kuchh log shikaayat ko haq apnaa samajhte hain kuchh log kabhi tum se fariyaad nahin karte ham apne iraadon mein rakhte hain tavaanaai ham daad ke taalib ko bedaad nahin karte jo aap ki niyyat kaa kuchh ilm hamein hotaa ham apni mohabbat ko barbaad nahin karte is daur-e-siyaasat mein 'mahmud' qayaamat hai ahbaab jo karte hain jallaad nahin karte"

"Tuut kar ab sanvar gayaa huun main is tarah se bikhar gayaa huun main jo tire naam ki gali hai vo us gali se guzar gayaa huun main yaadein teri sameT laayaa huun aaj jab se udhar gayaa huun main khud mukarnaa sikhaa diyaa us ne phir kahaa ki mukar gayaa huun main kal talak jo na kar sakaa thaa main aaj vo kaam kar gayaa huun main yuun kahin main nahin Thahartaa par tere dar par Thahar gayaa huun main"

"bistar-e-karb pe jab niind jalaai main ne tab kisi khvaab ki buniyaad uThaai main ne zakhm aise the ki har shakhs ke aage rakkhe baat aisi thi ki khud se bhi chhupaai main ne hurmat-e-gham ke liye khud ko aziyyat bakhshi phir usi dard se taskin bhi paai main ne main ne zakhmon ko kuredaa unhein taaza rakkhaa tab kahin dasht mein ki naghma-saraai main ne apni khiDki se yunhi khud ko pukaaraa kal shab aur phir khud ko vo aavaaz sunaai main ne jaane vaale se rag-e-jaan kaa bhi rishta thaa 'samir' ye samajhne mein bahut der lagaai main ne"

"zindagi dushvaar hogi ye kabhi sochaa na thaa vo bagule gham ke uTThe jin kaa andesha na thaa saamne tum aa gae ho to bataa duun jaan-e-jaan jaise dil dhaDkaa thaa ab ki vaise dil dhaDkaa na thaa ye iraada kar liyaa thaa ham na bichhDeinge kabhi TuTeinge ik pal mein rishte ye kabhi sochaa na thaa yaad-e-maazi miT rahi hai vaqt ki raftaar se ab tasavvur mein hamaare koi bhi chehra na thaa sakht hairat ho rahi hai dekh kar apnaa vajud dhuup mein the sab ke saaye par miraa saayaa na thaa shauq-e-manzil dekh meri dekh meraa hausla shahr-e-dil ke raaston mein main kabhi Thahraa na thaa 'qalb' ko sahraa-navardi raas kyaa aati bhalaa vo kabhi aavaargi mein dar-ba-dar bhaTkaa na thaa"

"jahaan-e-dard-o-gham hai aur main huun tiraa naqsh-e-qadam hai aur main huun kisi ki aankh nam hai aur main huun vufur-e-shauq kam hai aur main huun mujhe hai daulat-e-kaunain haasil mire rab kaa karam hai aur main huun main apne aap ko pahchaantaa huun miraa apnaa bharam hai aur main huun yahi kyaa kam hai duniyaa-e-vafaa mein mujhe ehsaas-e-gham hai aur main huun kisi ki yaad kaa ehsaan hai mujh par sukun-e-dil baham hai aur main huun mujhe 'mahmud' koi Dar nahin hai miraa apnaa qalam hai aur main huun"