ye dil bas mein kabhi mere rahaa naiin — Azra Naqvi

"ik muddat ke baa'd mili ehsaas jagaati tanhaai khaamoshi se dhire dhire ghar mahkaati tanhaai aavaazon ki bhiiD mein jab bhi mujh ko pareshaan dekhaa hai haath pakaD kar le aai hai kuchh samjhaati tanhaai aankhon se jab niind bhaTak kar sahraa sahraa ghumti hai mere sirhaane raat gae tak lori gaati tanhaai bachpan mein jab garm do-pahri nange paanv phirti thi aam ke baaghon mein milti thi ras barsaati tanhaai pyaar ki khvaab-ruton mein kaisi jaagi soi rahti thi chaand hinDole mein jhuli thi jab madh-maati tanhaai pahron ham ne baatein ki hain pahron khvaab sajaae hain main roi to mujh se chhup kar ashk bahaati tanhaai bahut dinon ke baa'd sanvar kar apnaa chehra dekhaa thaa aaine se jhaank rahi thi aankh churaati tanhaai"

"kabhi ik nayaa aasmaan DhunDhti huun kabhi koi jaa-e-amaan DhunDhti huun vo ik khvaab jo main ne dekhaa nahin thaa ab us khvaab ki dhajjiyaan DhunDhti huun mujhe meri hasti se aazaad kar de vo ik lamha-e-jaavedaan DhunDhti huun adaakaar chehron ki gahraaiyon mein kahin sach ki parchhaaiyaan DhunDhti huun jo patthar se alfaaz mein jaan Daale vo andaaz-e-sehrul-bayaan DhunDhti huun nahin koi divaar-e-girya mayassar koi meherbaan raaz-daan DhunDhti huun"

"har raat sitaaron kaa safar mere liye hai har roz nai taaza sahar mere liye hai ik shahr-e-tilismaat mujhe DhunD rahaa hai bechain koi raahguzar mere liye hai jab chaahun takhayyul se kisi daur mein ji luun lamhon mein ye sadiyon kaa safar mere liye hai kahte hain samundar mein kai raaz chhupe hain sandes liye koi bhanvar mere liye hai guzre hue fankaaron ki miraas mili hai un sab ki riyaazat kaa samar mere liye hai shikve to bahut tujh se hain ai jaan magar tu chhitnaar mohabbat kaa shajar mere liye hai"

"kis ki parchhaain mire saath safar karti hai kaun hai ye jo miri umr basar karti hai khvaab ke shahr banaati hai miri ik hamraaz aur phir khud hi mujhe shahr-badar karti hai koi aavaaz kahin DhunDhti phirti hai mujhe intizaar arse se ik raahguzar karti hai isi ummid pe likhti huun hadis-e-dil-e-zaar dil se nikli hui har baat asar karti hai lafz-o-maani ke samundar mein koi saaat-e-nur kisi takhliq ke lamhe ko guhar karti hai"

"aadhi jaagi aadhi soi raat bhi thi gahnaai si aankh khuli to dar pe khaDi thi subh bhi kuchh kumhlaai si din-bhar piiTh pe Dhoyaa suraj chehre par thi gard jami saath mein daftar se ghar lauTi shaam bhi kuchh uktaai si andeshon ki ungli thaame saal guzarte rahte hain kabhi kabhi lagne lagti hai apni umr paraai si lauT ke jaanaa naa-mumkin hai aage manzar dhundle hain baDhte qadmon mein haail hai khauf ki gahri khaai si sukhe sukhe jamunaa taT par piilaa piilaa taaj-mahal subh-e-banaras dhundli dhundli gangaa ji gadlaai si"

"airport station saDkon par hain kitne saare log jaane kaun se sukh ki khaatir phirte maare maare log shaam gae ye manzar ham ne mulkon mulkon dekhaa hai ghar lauTein bojhal qadmon se bujhe hue angaare log sab se shaaki khud se naalaan apni aag mein jalte hain dukh ke sivaa aur kyaa baanTeinge in jaise andhiyaare log pur-nam aankhon bojhal dil se kitni baar vidaai li kitnaa bojh liye phirte hain ham jaise banjaare log vo kitne khush-qismat the jo apne gharon ko lauT gae shahron shahron ghuum rahe hain ham haalaat ke maare log raat gae yaadon ke jangal mein divaali hoti hai diip sajaae aa jaate hain bhule bisre pyaare log bachpan kitnaa pyaaraa thaa jab dil ko yaqin aa jaataa thaa marte hain to ban jaate hain aasmaan ke taare log"

"vo mujhe zindagi bataataa hai phir bhalaa kyon nazar churaataa hai main usi ko uThaa rahaa thaa par vo mujhe hi faqat giraataa hai yaad us ko kiyaa yahaan main ne par mujhe vo vahaan bhulaataa hai raaz saare bataa diye main ne kyon magar raaz vo chhupaataa hai log masruf hain mohabbat mein aur vo dil miraa dukhaataa hai"

"dil shaad nahin karte aabaad nahin karte mahsus ye hotaa hai vo yaad nahin karte naashaad zamaane ke dil shaad nahin karte kam-aql parindon ko aazaad nahin karte mohtaaj-e-karam aksar rahte hain gharibon ke jo log gharibon ki imdaad nahin karte kuchh log shikaayat ko haq apnaa samajhte hain kuchh log kabhi tum se fariyaad nahin karte ham apne iraadon mein rakhte hain tavaanaai ham daad ke taalib ko bedaad nahin karte jo aap ki niyyat kaa kuchh ilm hamein hotaa ham apni mohabbat ko barbaad nahin karte is daur-e-siyaasat mein 'mahmud' qayaamat hai ahbaab jo karte hain jallaad nahin karte"

"Tuut kar ab sanvar gayaa huun main is tarah se bikhar gayaa huun main jo tire naam ki gali hai vo us gali se guzar gayaa huun main yaadein teri sameT laayaa huun aaj jab se udhar gayaa huun main khud mukarnaa sikhaa diyaa us ne phir kahaa ki mukar gayaa huun main kal talak jo na kar sakaa thaa main aaj vo kaam kar gayaa huun main yuun kahin main nahin Thahartaa par tere dar par Thahar gayaa huun main"

"bistar-e-karb pe jab niind jalaai main ne tab kisi khvaab ki buniyaad uThaai main ne zakhm aise the ki har shakhs ke aage rakkhe baat aisi thi ki khud se bhi chhupaai main ne hurmat-e-gham ke liye khud ko aziyyat bakhshi phir usi dard se taskin bhi paai main ne main ne zakhmon ko kuredaa unhein taaza rakkhaa tab kahin dasht mein ki naghma-saraai main ne apni khiDki se yunhi khud ko pukaaraa kal shab aur phir khud ko vo aavaaz sunaai main ne jaane vaale se rag-e-jaan kaa bhi rishta thaa 'samir' ye samajhne mein bahut der lagaai main ne"

"zindagi dushvaar hogi ye kabhi sochaa na thaa vo bagule gham ke uTThe jin kaa andesha na thaa saamne tum aa gae ho to bataa duun jaan-e-jaan jaise dil dhaDkaa thaa ab ki vaise dil dhaDkaa na thaa ye iraada kar liyaa thaa ham na bichhDeinge kabhi TuTeinge ik pal mein rishte ye kabhi sochaa na thaa yaad-e-maazi miT rahi hai vaqt ki raftaar se ab tasavvur mein hamaare koi bhi chehra na thaa sakht hairat ho rahi hai dekh kar apnaa vajud dhuup mein the sab ke saaye par miraa saayaa na thaa shauq-e-manzil dekh meri dekh meraa hausla shahr-e-dil ke raaston mein main kabhi Thahraa na thaa 'qalb' ko sahraa-navardi raas kyaa aati bhalaa vo kabhi aavaargi mein dar-ba-dar bhaTkaa na thaa"

"jahaan-e-dard-o-gham hai aur main huun tiraa naqsh-e-qadam hai aur main huun kisi ki aankh nam hai aur main huun vufur-e-shauq kam hai aur main huun mujhe hai daulat-e-kaunain haasil mire rab kaa karam hai aur main huun main apne aap ko pahchaantaa huun miraa apnaa bharam hai aur main huun yahi kyaa kam hai duniyaa-e-vafaa mein mujhe ehsaas-e-gham hai aur main huun kisi ki yaad kaa ehsaan hai mujh par sukun-e-dil baham hai aur main huun mujhe 'mahmud' koi Dar nahin hai miraa apnaa qalam hai aur main huun"