ba-zom-e-aql ye kaisaa gunaah main ne kiyaa — Irfan Sattar

"raakh ke Dher pe kyaa shoala-bayaani karte ek qisse ki bhalaa kitni kahaani karte husn itnaa thaa ki mumkin hi na thi khud-nigari ek imkaan ki kab tak nigaraani karte shola-e-jaan ko bujhaate yunhi qatra qatra khud ko ham aag banaate tujhe paani karte phuul saa tujh ko mahaktaa huaa rakhte shab bhar apne saanson se tujhe raat ki raani karte naddiyaan dekhein to bas sharm se paani ho jaaein chashm-e-khun-basta se paidaa vo ravaani karte sab se kahte ki ye qissa hai puraanaa saahab aah ki aanch se tasvir puraani karte dar-o-divaar badalne mein kahaan ki mushkil ghar jo hotaa to bhalaa naql-e-makaani karte koi aa jaataa kabhi yunhi agar dil ke qarib ham tiraa zikr pae-yaad-dahaani karte sach to ye hai ki tire hijr kaa ab ranj nahin kyaa dikhaave ke liye ashk-fishaani karte dil ko har lahza hi di aql pe ham ne tarjih yaar-e-jaani ko kahaan dushman-e-jaani karte shab isi tarah basar hoti hai meri 'irfaan' harf-e-khush-rang ko andoh-e-maaani karte"

"bahut khajil hain ki ham raaegaan bhi zinda rahe jahaan pe tu bhi nahin thaa vahaan bhi zinda rahe ajiib shart hai is be-yaqin mizaaj ki bhi ki tu bhi paas ho teraa gumaan bhi zinda rahe tujhe pe zid hai magar is tarah nahin hotaa ki tu bhi zinda rahe daastaan bhi zinda rahe vo kaun log the jin kaa vajud jism se thaa ye kaun hain jo pas-e-jism-o-jaan bhi zinda rahe jo ye na ho to sukhan kaa koi javaaz nahin zamir zinda rahe to zabaan bhi zinda rahe ye kaaenaat faqat manfaat kaa naam nahin koi yahaan pe baraae ziyaan bhi zinda rahe adam mein jo bhi nahin thaa vo sab vajud mein thaa ye ham hi the jo kahin darmiyaan bhi zinda rahe"

"phir khuun mein vahshat raqsaan hai tajdid sitam karne ke liye ik taaza zakhm ki khvaahish hai ik sadma kam karne ke liye ham din-bhar duniyaa-daari mein hans hans ke baatein karte hain phir saari raat pighalte hain ik ashk raqam karne ke liye vo vasl ki jis ne ham donon ko yaksar be-buniyaad kiyaa ab fursat hai aa mil baiThein us vasl kaa gham karne ke liye ik kaari zakhm ki chaahat ne kyaa kyaa na hamein gulzaar kiyaa ham kis kis se mansub hue ik hijr baham karne ke liye insaan ke jiine marne ke majburi ke mukhtaari ke ye saare khel zaruri hain taamir adam karne ke liye"

"chaand bhi khoyaa khoyaa saa hai taare bhi khvaabida hain aaj fazaa ke bojhal-pan se lahje bhi sanjida hain jaane kin kin logon se is dard ke kyaa kyaa rishte the hijr ki is aabaad saraa mein sab chehre naadida hain itne barson baad bhi donon kaise TuuT ke milte hain tu hai kitnaa saada-dil aur ham kitne pechida hain sun jaanaan ham tark-e-taalluq aur kisi din kar leinge aaj tujhe bhi ujlat si hai ham bhi kuchh ranjida hain kaanon mein ik sargoshi hai be-maani si sargoshi aankhon mein kuchh khvaab saje hain khvaab bhi umr-rasida hain ghar ki vo makhdush imaarat gir ke phir taamir hui ab aangan mein peD hain jitne saare shaakh burida hain is basti mein ek saDak hai jis se ham ko nafrat hai us ke niche pagDanDi hai jis ke ham girvida hain"

"ek taarik khalaa us mein chamaktaa havaa main ye kahaan aa gayaa hasti se saraktaa huaa main shola-e-jaan se fanaa hotaa huun qatra qatra apni aankhon se lahu ban ke Tapaktaa huaa main aagahi ne mujhe bakhshi hai ye naar-e-khud-soz ik jahannam ki tarah khud mein bhaDaktaa huaa main muntazir huun ki koi aa ke mukammal kar de chaak par ghumtaa bal khaataa daraktaa huaa main majmaa ahl-e-haram naqsh-ba-divaar udhar aur idhar shor machaataa huaa baktaa huaa main mere hi dam se mili saaat-e-imkaan use vaqt ke jism mein dil ban ke dhaDaktaa huaa main be-niyaazi se miri aate hue tang ye log aur logon ki tavajjoh se bidaktaa huaa main raat ki raat nikal jaataa huun khud se baahar apne khvaabon ke taaaqub mein humaktaa huaa main aisi yakjaai ki miT jaae tamiz-e-man-o-tu mujh mein khiltaa huaa tu tujh mein mahaktaa huaa main ik to vo husn-e-junun-khez hai aalam mein shuhud aur ik husn-e-junun-khez ko taktaa huaa main ek aavaaz paDi thi ki koi saail-e-hijr? aan ki aan mein pahunchaa thaa lapaktaa huaa main hai kashid-e-sukhan-e-khaas vadiat mujh ko ghumtaa phirtaa huun ye itr chhiDaktaa huaa main raaz-e-haq faash huaa mujh pe bhi hote hote khud tak aa hi gayaa 'irfaan' bhaTaktaa huaa main"

"tire jamaal se ham runumaa nahin hue hain chamak rahe hain magar aaina nahin hue hain dhaDak rahaa hai tu ik ism ki hai ye barakat vagarna vaaqiye is dil mein kyaa nahin hue hain bataa na paaein to khud tum samajh hi jaao ki ham bilaa javaaz to be-maajraa nahin hue hain tiraa kamaal ki aankhon mein kuchh zabaan pe kuchh hamein to moajize aise ataa nahin hue hain ye mat samajh ki koi tujh se munharif hi nahin abhi ham ahl-e-junun lab-kushaa nahin hue hain ba-naam-e-zauq-e-sukhan khud-numaai aap karein ham is maraz mein abhi mubtalaa nahin hue hain hami vo jin kaa safar maavaraa-e-vaqt-o-vajud hami vo khud se kabhi jo rihaa nahin hue hain khud-aagahi bhi khaDi maangti hai apnaa hisaab junun ke qarz bhi ab tak adaa nahin hue hain kisi ne dil jo dukhaayaa kabhi to ham 'irfaan' udaas ho gae lekin khafaa nahin hue hain"

"dil shaad nahin karte aabaad nahin karte mahsus ye hotaa hai vo yaad nahin karte naashaad zamaane ke dil shaad nahin karte kam-aql parindon ko aazaad nahin karte mohtaaj-e-karam aksar rahte hain gharibon ke jo log gharibon ki imdaad nahin karte kuchh log shikaayat ko haq apnaa samajhte hain kuchh log kabhi tum se fariyaad nahin karte ham apne iraadon mein rakhte hain tavaanaai ham daad ke taalib ko bedaad nahin karte jo aap ki niyyat kaa kuchh ilm hamein hotaa ham apni mohabbat ko barbaad nahin karte is daur-e-siyaasat mein 'mahmud' qayaamat hai ahbaab jo karte hain jallaad nahin karte"

"bahr-e-rang-e-daastaan rahne diyaa ik tajassus darmiyaan rahne diyaa ab zamin ban kar bichhaa jaataa hai vo main ne jis ko aasmaan rahne diyaa raushni aur khvaab saare hech the apni aankhon mein dhuaan rahne diyaa vo jagah raushan nahin hogi kabhi is mohabbat ko jahaan rahne diyaa maan ne maathaa chuum kar rukhsat kiyaa maamtaa kaa saaebaan rahne diyaa kul milaa ke ye hai raaz-e-tishnagi ham ne dil ko sargiraan rahne diyaa khud hami paamaal Thahre shauq se khush-gumaan ko khush-gumaan rahne diyaa"

"tere tasavvuraat se aage nahin gayaa ye dil tavahhumaat se aage nahin gayaa jo biich raah chhoD gayaa shukr hai vo shakhs meri tavaqqu'aat se aage nahin gayaa shaayad use pasand thiin jhuTi numaaishein lekin main dil ki baat se aage nahin gayaa jazbaat-e-dil ko vo bhi na kuchh Dhang de sakaa main bhi takallufaat se aage nahin gayaa tohfa bhi us ke vaaste kangan liyaa 'zarim' vallah main us ke haath se aage nahin gayaa"

"na koi dost ho meraa na ho adu meraa tum apne munh se agar kah do mujh ko tu meraa fasurdagi mein junun-e-havaa-e-gul yaani khizaan ke daur mein saudaa-e-rang-o-bu meraa jo tum nahin to bahaar-e-jinaan mein khaak nahin bahut vasia hai daamaan-e-aarzu meraa nibhegi ai dil-e-aavaara ab na tujh se miri bas aaj se na main teraa huun aur na tu meraa banaa rahe hain vo jalve ki apne tasvirein dikhaa dikhaa ke tamaashaa-e-rang-o-bu meraa kisi ki zulf-e-siyah kah rahi hai khul khul kar ghaTaa ne rang uDaayaa hai hu-ba-hu meraa mah-e-siyaam kaa aur intizaam kyaa karte janaab-e-shaikh uDaa le gae subu meraa jafaa kaa rang judaa hai vafaa kaa rang judaa malo na dast-e-hinaai mein tum lahu meraa taDap rahi hai jo abr-e-siyaah mein bijli firaaq mein yahi naqsha thaa hu-ba-hu meraa suhaani raat hai chhiTki hai chaandni 'muztar' miri nigaah mein phirtaa hai maah-ru meraa"

"kisi ki mehrbaani ho gai hai ayaan dil ki kahaani ho gai hai hare mausam ki pahli khvaahishein uf khushi gham ki divaani ho gai hai sabhi afraad ghar ke so gae hain bahut lambi kahaani ho gai hai rivaayat kaa hai ab bhi sahar qaaem har ik jiddat puraani ho gai hai pas-e-chehra milaa ik aur chehra 'aqidat paani paani ho gai hai"

"aakhiri hal thaa yahi pesh-e-nazar jaane diyaa ek gahri saans li phir khvaab mar jaane diyaa saarbaanaa de gavaahi mujh ko pyaari thi anaa rakh liyaa zaad-e-safar aur ham-safar jaane diyaa hazrat-e-naaseh ki khush-uftaadgi pe daad hai khud jidhar se aae the sab ko udhar jaane diyaa is harim-e-naaz mein yuun be-mahaabaa guftugu kuchh bharam rakkhaa to hotaa tum ko gar jaane diyaa tujh ko rokaa jaa rahaa thaa raushni thi jab talak shaam ke Dhalte samay suraj ko ghar jaane diyaa aankh sapne dekhti thi aansuon se kyon bhari chaahti to puchh leti main magar jaane diyaa dostaa qismat na ho to koshishein bekaar hain sabr kaa paimaana ham ne khud hi bhar jaane diyaa dil musir thaa baarhaa kuchh jaanchne ko ruk gae aakhirash us ne hamein baar-e-digar jaane diyaa"