aur kuchh yaad nahin ab se na tab se puchho — Anjum Irfani

"tesha-ba-kaf ko aaina-gar kah diyaa gayaa jo aib thaa use bhi hunar kah diyaa gayaa saaya hai pyaar kaa na mohabbat ki dhuup hai divaar ke hisaar ko ghar kah diyaa gayaa in ke har ek goshe mein sadiyaan muqim hain TuuTi imaaraton ko khanDar kah diyaa gayaa khuddaari-e-anaa hai na pindaar-e-zist hai shaanon ke saare bojh ko sar kah diyaa gayaa aangan mein har makaan ke andheron kaa raaj hai mahlon ki raushni ko sahar kah diyaa gayaa kuchh khauf-e-jaan hai aur na kuchh fikr-e-hijr-e-yaar khush-gaamiyon ko ranj-e-safar kah diyaa gayaa hairat darogh maslahat-aamez par ho kyaa be-barg jhaaDiyon ko shajar kah diyaa gayaa dekhaa kahaan hai aag ke dariyaaon kaa safar jugnu uDe to raqs-e-sharar kah diyaa gayaa kuchh ehtiraam-o-husn-e-aqidat ke josh mein har naqsh aab-e-naqsh-e-hajar kah diyaa gayaa khul jaaegaa bharam tiri mizaan-e-adl kaa do ek harf-e-jurm agar kah diyaa gayaa naa-aashnaa-e-naqsh-e-kaf-e-paa-e-aam hai vo raasta bhi raahguzar kah diyaa gayaa yuun khush hain jaise vaaqiatan ho gae khudaa majburiyon ke zer-e-asar kah diyaa gayaa 'anjum' yahaan tak aane mein kyaa kyaa guzar gai mohr-e-sar-e-mizha bhi guhar kah diyaa gayaa"

"is ne dekhaa hai sar-e-bazm sitamgar ki tarah phuul pheinkaa bhi miri samt to patthar ki tarah us ke lab ko mire lab rah gae chhute chhute main bhi naakaam chalaa aayaa sikandar ki tarah rang suraj kaa sar-e-shaam huaa jaataa hai zard us kaa bhi ghar na ho viraan mire ghar ki tarah dard us ahd ki miraas hai Darnaa kaisaa dard ko oDh liyaa karte hain chaadar ki tarah log har lamha badalte hain nazariye apne zehn-e-insaan bhi tavaaif ke hai bistar ki tarah ab ki yurish mein kahin gir hi na jaae ye fasil shor rahtaa hai mire dil mein samundar ki tarah kaisaa is ahd mein paimaan-e-vafaa log ab to dost har saal badalte hain calender ki tarah lafz aate hi mire lab pe laraz jaate hain haal-e-dil sunte hain ab vo kisi afsar ki tarah vahi paabandi-e-auqaat vahi maamulaat zindagi ghar mein basar hoti hai daftar ki tarah ho gayaa khaak-nashin par ye jhukaae na jhukaa kisi sar mein bhi na saudaa ho mire sar ki tarah 'anjum' is ahd mein TuuTe hue dil ke rishte joDne par bhi hain udhDe hue collar ki tarah"

"ab kisi andhe safar ke liye tayyaar huaa chaahtaa hai ik zaraa der mein rukhsat tiraa bimaar huaa chaahtaa hai aakhiri qist bhi saanson ki chukaa degaa chukaane vaalaa zindagi qarz se tere vo subuk-baar huaa chaahtaa hai raaz-e-sar-basta samajhte rahe ab tak jise ahl-e-daanish munkashif aaj vahi raaz sar-e-daar huaa chaahtaa hai dil-e-vahshi ke bahalne kaa nahin ek bhi saamaan yahaan mahfil-e-zohd-e-mizaajaan se ye bezaar huaa chaahtaa hai dekh leni thi tujhe sina-e-aafat-zadagaan ki sakhti teraa har tir-e-hadaf-kaar hi bekaar huaa chaahtaa hai phailte shahron ke jangal mein ye ghaaron ki tarah tang makaan khuun mein vahshi-e-khvaabida bhi bedaar huaa chaahtaa hai dard-e-dil baanTtaa aayaa hai zamaane ko jo ab tak 'anjum' kuchh huaa yuun ki vahi dard se do-chaar huaa chaahtaa hai"

"fasil-e-jism pe shab-khun sharaartein teri zaraa si bhi nahin badli hain aadatein teri ye zakhm zakhm badan aur lahu lahu ye khvaab kitaab-e-jism pe utri hain aayatein teri hisaar-e-aatish-e-namrud mein ghiraa huun main ab itni sust qadam kyuun hain rahmatein teri charaag chaand shafaq shaam phuul jhiil sabaa churaain sab ne hi kuchh kuchh shabaahatein teri ye mauj mauj lahu mein tire badan kaa nasha talaash kartaa hai har lamha qurbatein teri ai rashk-e-sarv-o-sanobar-qadaan khiraam-e-naaz ki raah dekh rahi hain qayaamatein teri miri havas ke samundar mein madd-o-jazr nahin pe-zavaal na hon chaand-chaahatein teri ukhaDne vaali thi jis dam tanaab saanson ki dar aaiin khema-e-dil mein bashaaratein teri ise sambhaal, huaa jaa rahaa hai zer-o-zabar ki dil pe laai hui sab hain aafatein teri adaa huaa na kabhi mujh se ek sajda-e-shukr main kis zabaan se karungaa shikaayatein teri vo aankhon aankhon mein raaton kaa kaaTnaa teraa vo baaton baaton mein 'anjum' ibaadatein teri"

"lahje kaa ras hansi ki dhanak chhoD kar gayaa vo jaate jaate dil mein kasak chhoD kar gayaa mauj-e-havaa-e-gul saa vo guzraa thaa ek baar phir bhi mashaam-e-jaan mein mahak chhoD kar gayaa aayaa thaa pichhli raat dabe paanv mere ghar paazeb ki ragon mein jhanak chhoD kar gayaa larza giraft-e-lams ki lazzat se baar baar baanhon mein shaakh-e-gul ki lachak chhoD kar gayaa aayaa thaa shahr-e-gul se bulaavaa mire liye zindaan mein beDiyon ki chhanak chhoD kar gayaa thaa dekhnaa kuchh apnaa tilism-e-hunar use baagh-e-bahisht o huur o malak chhoD kar gayaa aavaara ku-ba-ku ye use DhunDhti phire paa-e-havaa mein kaisi sanak chhoD kar gayaa hanste the zakhm aur bhi khaa khaa ke zarb-e-sang raahon mein phuul duur talak chhoD kar gayaa haathon mein de ke khinch liin resham-kalaaiyaan kamre mein chuDiyon ki khanak chhoD kar gayaa aankhein na us ki baar-e-nadaamat se uTh sakin zakhmon pe mere aur namak chhoD kar gayaa palkon pe jugnuon kaa baseraa hai vaqt-e-shaam 'anjum' main paaniyon mein chamak chhoD kar gayaa"

"ab is saada kahaani ko nayaa ik moD denaa thaa zaraa si baat par ahd-e-vafaa hi toD denaa thaa mahaktaa thaa badan har vaqt jis ke lams-e-khush-bu se vahi gul-dasta dahliz-e-khizaan par chhoD denaa thaa shikast-e-saaz-e-dil kaa umr bhar maatam bhi kyaa karte ki ik din hanste hanste saaz-e-jaan hi toD denaa thaa safar mein har qadam rah rah ke ye taklif hi dete bahar-surat hamein in aablon ko phoD denaa thaa ghalat-fahmi ke jhonkon se bikhar kar rah gae aakhir lahu ki aanch mein TuuTe dilon ko joD denaa thaa vo jis pe zikr hai qaul-o-qasam aur ahd-o-paimaan kaa kitaab-e-zindagi ke is varaq ko moD denaa thaa banaayaa hi nahin ham ne kabhi ye soch kar 'anjum' ki gautam ki tarah ik din hamein ghar chhoD denaa thaa"

"vo mujhe zindagi bataataa hai phir bhalaa kyon nazar churaataa hai main usi ko uThaa rahaa thaa par vo mujhe hi faqat giraataa hai yaad us ko kiyaa yahaan main ne par mujhe vo vahaan bhulaataa hai raaz saare bataa diye main ne kyon magar raaz vo chhupaataa hai log masruf hain mohabbat mein aur vo dil miraa dukhaataa hai"

"dil shaad nahin karte aabaad nahin karte mahsus ye hotaa hai vo yaad nahin karte naashaad zamaane ke dil shaad nahin karte kam-aql parindon ko aazaad nahin karte mohtaaj-e-karam aksar rahte hain gharibon ke jo log gharibon ki imdaad nahin karte kuchh log shikaayat ko haq apnaa samajhte hain kuchh log kabhi tum se fariyaad nahin karte ham apne iraadon mein rakhte hain tavaanaai ham daad ke taalib ko bedaad nahin karte jo aap ki niyyat kaa kuchh ilm hamein hotaa ham apni mohabbat ko barbaad nahin karte is daur-e-siyaasat mein 'mahmud' qayaamat hai ahbaab jo karte hain jallaad nahin karte"

"Tuut kar ab sanvar gayaa huun main is tarah se bikhar gayaa huun main jo tire naam ki gali hai vo us gali se guzar gayaa huun main yaadein teri sameT laayaa huun aaj jab se udhar gayaa huun main khud mukarnaa sikhaa diyaa us ne phir kahaa ki mukar gayaa huun main kal talak jo na kar sakaa thaa main aaj vo kaam kar gayaa huun main yuun kahin main nahin Thahartaa par tere dar par Thahar gayaa huun main"

"bistar-e-karb pe jab niind jalaai main ne tab kisi khvaab ki buniyaad uThaai main ne zakhm aise the ki har shakhs ke aage rakkhe baat aisi thi ki khud se bhi chhupaai main ne hurmat-e-gham ke liye khud ko aziyyat bakhshi phir usi dard se taskin bhi paai main ne main ne zakhmon ko kuredaa unhein taaza rakkhaa tab kahin dasht mein ki naghma-saraai main ne apni khiDki se yunhi khud ko pukaaraa kal shab aur phir khud ko vo aavaaz sunaai main ne jaane vaale se rag-e-jaan kaa bhi rishta thaa 'samir' ye samajhne mein bahut der lagaai main ne"

"zindagi dushvaar hogi ye kabhi sochaa na thaa vo bagule gham ke uTThe jin kaa andesha na thaa saamne tum aa gae ho to bataa duun jaan-e-jaan jaise dil dhaDkaa thaa ab ki vaise dil dhaDkaa na thaa ye iraada kar liyaa thaa ham na bichhDeinge kabhi TuTeinge ik pal mein rishte ye kabhi sochaa na thaa yaad-e-maazi miT rahi hai vaqt ki raftaar se ab tasavvur mein hamaare koi bhi chehra na thaa sakht hairat ho rahi hai dekh kar apnaa vajud dhuup mein the sab ke saaye par miraa saayaa na thaa shauq-e-manzil dekh meri dekh meraa hausla shahr-e-dil ke raaston mein main kabhi Thahraa na thaa 'qalb' ko sahraa-navardi raas kyaa aati bhalaa vo kabhi aavaargi mein dar-ba-dar bhaTkaa na thaa"

"jahaan-e-dard-o-gham hai aur main huun tiraa naqsh-e-qadam hai aur main huun kisi ki aankh nam hai aur main huun vufur-e-shauq kam hai aur main huun mujhe hai daulat-e-kaunain haasil mire rab kaa karam hai aur main huun main apne aap ko pahchaantaa huun miraa apnaa bharam hai aur main huun yahi kyaa kam hai duniyaa-e-vafaa mein mujhe ehsaas-e-gham hai aur main huun kisi ki yaad kaa ehsaan hai mujh par sukun-e-dil baham hai aur main huun mujhe 'mahmud' koi Dar nahin hai miraa apnaa qalam hai aur main huun"