tesha-ba-kaf ko aaina-gar kah diyaa gayaa — Anjum Irfani

"ab is saada kahaani ko nayaa ik moD denaa thaa zaraa si baat par ahd-e-vafaa hi toD denaa thaa mahaktaa thaa badan har vaqt jis ke lams-e-khush-bu se vahi gul-dasta dahliz-e-khizaan par chhoD denaa thaa shikast-e-saaz-e-dil kaa umr bhar maatam bhi kyaa karte ki ik din hanste hanste saaz-e-jaan hi toD denaa thaa safar mein har qadam rah rah ke ye taklif hi dete bahar-surat hamein in aablon ko phoD denaa thaa ghalat-fahmi ke jhonkon se bikhar kar rah gae aakhir lahu ki aanch mein TuuTe dilon ko joD denaa thaa vo jis pe zikr hai qaul-o-qasam aur ahd-o-paimaan kaa kitaab-e-zindagi ke is varaq ko moD denaa thaa banaayaa hi nahin ham ne kabhi ye soch kar 'anjum' ki gautam ki tarah ik din hamein ghar chhoD denaa thaa"

"is ne dekhaa hai sar-e-bazm sitamgar ki tarah phuul pheinkaa bhi miri samt to patthar ki tarah us ke lab ko mire lab rah gae chhute chhute main bhi naakaam chalaa aayaa sikandar ki tarah rang suraj kaa sar-e-shaam huaa jaataa hai zard us kaa bhi ghar na ho viraan mire ghar ki tarah dard us ahd ki miraas hai Darnaa kaisaa dard ko oDh liyaa karte hain chaadar ki tarah log har lamha badalte hain nazariye apne zehn-e-insaan bhi tavaaif ke hai bistar ki tarah ab ki yurish mein kahin gir hi na jaae ye fasil shor rahtaa hai mire dil mein samundar ki tarah kaisaa is ahd mein paimaan-e-vafaa log ab to dost har saal badalte hain calender ki tarah lafz aate hi mire lab pe laraz jaate hain haal-e-dil sunte hain ab vo kisi afsar ki tarah vahi paabandi-e-auqaat vahi maamulaat zindagi ghar mein basar hoti hai daftar ki tarah ho gayaa khaak-nashin par ye jhukaae na jhukaa kisi sar mein bhi na saudaa ho mire sar ki tarah 'anjum' is ahd mein TuuTe hue dil ke rishte joDne par bhi hain udhDe hue collar ki tarah"

"ab kisi andhe safar ke liye tayyaar huaa chaahtaa hai ik zaraa der mein rukhsat tiraa bimaar huaa chaahtaa hai aakhiri qist bhi saanson ki chukaa degaa chukaane vaalaa zindagi qarz se tere vo subuk-baar huaa chaahtaa hai raaz-e-sar-basta samajhte rahe ab tak jise ahl-e-daanish munkashif aaj vahi raaz sar-e-daar huaa chaahtaa hai dil-e-vahshi ke bahalne kaa nahin ek bhi saamaan yahaan mahfil-e-zohd-e-mizaajaan se ye bezaar huaa chaahtaa hai dekh leni thi tujhe sina-e-aafat-zadagaan ki sakhti teraa har tir-e-hadaf-kaar hi bekaar huaa chaahtaa hai phailte shahron ke jangal mein ye ghaaron ki tarah tang makaan khuun mein vahshi-e-khvaabida bhi bedaar huaa chaahtaa hai dard-e-dil baanTtaa aayaa hai zamaane ko jo ab tak 'anjum' kuchh huaa yuun ki vahi dard se do-chaar huaa chaahtaa hai"

"fasil-e-jism pe shab-khun sharaartein teri zaraa si bhi nahin badli hain aadatein teri ye zakhm zakhm badan aur lahu lahu ye khvaab kitaab-e-jism pe utri hain aayatein teri hisaar-e-aatish-e-namrud mein ghiraa huun main ab itni sust qadam kyuun hain rahmatein teri charaag chaand shafaq shaam phuul jhiil sabaa churaain sab ne hi kuchh kuchh shabaahatein teri ye mauj mauj lahu mein tire badan kaa nasha talaash kartaa hai har lamha qurbatein teri ai rashk-e-sarv-o-sanobar-qadaan khiraam-e-naaz ki raah dekh rahi hain qayaamatein teri miri havas ke samundar mein madd-o-jazr nahin pe-zavaal na hon chaand-chaahatein teri ukhaDne vaali thi jis dam tanaab saanson ki dar aaiin khema-e-dil mein bashaaratein teri ise sambhaal, huaa jaa rahaa hai zer-o-zabar ki dil pe laai hui sab hain aafatein teri adaa huaa na kabhi mujh se ek sajda-e-shukr main kis zabaan se karungaa shikaayatein teri vo aankhon aankhon mein raaton kaa kaaTnaa teraa vo baaton baaton mein 'anjum' ibaadatein teri"

"lahje kaa ras hansi ki dhanak chhoD kar gayaa vo jaate jaate dil mein kasak chhoD kar gayaa mauj-e-havaa-e-gul saa vo guzraa thaa ek baar phir bhi mashaam-e-jaan mein mahak chhoD kar gayaa aayaa thaa pichhli raat dabe paanv mere ghar paazeb ki ragon mein jhanak chhoD kar gayaa larza giraft-e-lams ki lazzat se baar baar baanhon mein shaakh-e-gul ki lachak chhoD kar gayaa aayaa thaa shahr-e-gul se bulaavaa mire liye zindaan mein beDiyon ki chhanak chhoD kar gayaa thaa dekhnaa kuchh apnaa tilism-e-hunar use baagh-e-bahisht o huur o malak chhoD kar gayaa aavaara ku-ba-ku ye use DhunDhti phire paa-e-havaa mein kaisi sanak chhoD kar gayaa hanste the zakhm aur bhi khaa khaa ke zarb-e-sang raahon mein phuul duur talak chhoD kar gayaa haathon mein de ke khinch liin resham-kalaaiyaan kamre mein chuDiyon ki khanak chhoD kar gayaa aankhein na us ki baar-e-nadaamat se uTh sakin zakhmon pe mere aur namak chhoD kar gayaa palkon pe jugnuon kaa baseraa hai vaqt-e-shaam 'anjum' main paaniyon mein chamak chhoD kar gayaa"

"aur kuchh yaad nahin ab se na tab se puchho meri aankhon se lahu bahtaa hai kab se puchho lamhe lamhe mein huaa jaataa huun reza reza vajh kuchh mujh se na puchho mire rab se puchho vo to suraj hai har ik baat kaa shoala hai javaab ru-ba-ru aa ke kaho yaa ki aqab se puchho yaad hai qissa-e-gham kaa mujhe har lafz abhi haal jis dard kaa jis ranj kaa jab se puchho tai havaa kaise andheron ke samundar kaa safar ghaaza-e-subh se kyaa chaadar-e-shab se puchho zakhm dekho mire talvon ke na chehre kaa ghubaar mujh pe kyaa guzri hai ye raah-e-talab se puchho kitne sahraa ki simaT aae hain siine mein mire tishnagi meri na sukhe hue lab se puchho yuun na har chehre pe ab Daalo savaali nazrein us ke kuche kaa pata tum to na sab se puchho mujh se kyaa puchhte ho saare hi lamhon kaa hisaab mil ke jis moD se ham bichhDe hain tab se puchho harf-e-haq kahne mein kyaa kyaa na hue ham pe sitam puchhnaa hi hai to bu-jahl o lahb se puchho jumbish-e-lab ki tumhein bhi hai ijaazat 'anjum' baat jo puchho bahar-haal adab se puchho"

"phir khuun mein vahshat raqsaan hai tajdid sitam karne ke liye ik taaza zakhm ki khvaahish hai ik sadma kam karne ke liye ham din-bhar duniyaa-daari mein hans hans ke baatein karte hain phir saari raat pighalte hain ik ashk raqam karne ke liye vo vasl ki jis ne ham donon ko yaksar be-buniyaad kiyaa ab fursat hai aa mil baiThein us vasl kaa gham karne ke liye ik kaari zakhm ki chaahat ne kyaa kyaa na hamein gulzaar kiyaa ham kis kis se mansub hue ik hijr baham karne ke liye insaan ke jiine marne ke majburi ke mukhtaari ke ye saare khel zaruri hain taamir adam karne ke liye"

"chaand bhi khoyaa khoyaa saa hai taare bhi khvaabida hain aaj fazaa ke bojhal-pan se lahje bhi sanjida hain jaane kin kin logon se is dard ke kyaa kyaa rishte the hijr ki is aabaad saraa mein sab chehre naadida hain itne barson baad bhi donon kaise TuuT ke milte hain tu hai kitnaa saada-dil aur ham kitne pechida hain sun jaanaan ham tark-e-taalluq aur kisi din kar leinge aaj tujhe bhi ujlat si hai ham bhi kuchh ranjida hain kaanon mein ik sargoshi hai be-maani si sargoshi aankhon mein kuchh khvaab saje hain khvaab bhi umr-rasida hain ghar ki vo makhdush imaarat gir ke phir taamir hui ab aangan mein peD hain jitne saare shaakh burida hain is basti mein ek saDak hai jis se ham ko nafrat hai us ke niche pagDanDi hai jis ke ham girvida hain"

"raftagaan ki sadaa nahin main huun ye tiraa vaahima nahin main huun tere maazi ke saath dafn kahin meraa ik vaaqi'a nahin main huun kyaa milaa intihaa-pasandi se kyaa main tere sivaa nahin main huun ek muddat mein jaa ke mujh pe khulaa chaand hasrat-zada nahin main huun us ne mujh ko muhaal jaan liyaa main ye kahtaa rahaa nahin main huun main hi 'ujlat mein aa gayaa thaa idhar ye zamaana nayaa nahin main huun meri vahshat se Dar gae shaayad yaar baad-e-fanaa nahin main huun main tire saath rah gayaa huun kahin vaqt Thahraa huaa nahin main huun gaahe gaahe sukhan zaruri hai saamne aaina nahin main huun sarsari kyuun guzartaa hai mujh se ye miraa maajraa nahin main huun us ne puchhaa kahaan gayaa vo shakhs kyaa bataataa ki thaa nahin main huun ye kise dekhtaa hai mujh se udhar tere aage khalaa nahin main huun"

"dast-kash hon na mai-e-gul ke khush-aashaam abhi ki labaalab hain mah-o-mehr ke do-jaam abhi zehn mein saaqi hai mai-khaana hai hai jaam abhi hosh kahtaa huun ise hosh kaa kyaa kaam abhi mujh ko darkaar na hai kufr na islaam abhi sidhe sidhe hi chale aate hain paighaam abhi tu bhi baaqi tiri rahmat bhi hai baaqi saaqi rahne de hai mai-e-isyaan se baDaa kaam abhi khaal-o-gesu se hai ye silsila-e-raaz-o-niyaaz daana sad-daana ho ye daam ho sad-daam abhi ziist ke khvaab ki taabir abhi baaqi hai ibtidaa dekh chuke hai magar anjaam abhi rah-rav-e-ishq abhi duur hai mearaaj-e-habib rashk-e-manzil na huaa raah mein har gaam abhi zarra-zarra hai ik aatish-kada-e-nur kalim dekh agar tu na ho aatish-zada-e-baam abhi imtiyaaz-e-man-o-tu raaz-e-khafi hai lekin khaasgaan ke liye kahtaa huun sar-e-aam abhi aks ko zo'm hai be-misli-e-rang-o-bu kaa turfa ye hai ki muqaabil hai vo gulfaam abhi raaz-goi tiri 'aiman' hai gunaah-e-akbar maang le afv ki us kaa hai karam aam abhi"

"baad-e-shimaal chalne lagi ang ang mein lipTaa hai kaun mujh se ye patjhaD ke rang mein khvaahish ke kaarobaar se bachnaa muhaal hai utregaa tu bhi saath mire is surang mein main aandhiyon mein haath bhi pakDun tiraa to kyaa ik shaakh-e-be-siper huun havaaon ki jang mein 'raanjhaa' main 'ahd-e-nau kaa qabilon mein baT gayaa to 'hir' ban ke pi na saki zahr jhang mein garmaa sakin na chaahatein teraa kaThor jism har ek jal ke bujh gai tasvir sang mein aage 'musavvir' aag 'aqab mein hai ye sadaa pichhe na muD ke dekhnaa is dasht-e-sang mein"

"tifli piiri o naujavaani hech tiin din ki hai zindagaani hech umr-e-do-roza par ghamanD itnaa munimon ki hai lan-taraani hech raat thoDi hai aao pyaar karein subh ko hogi ye kahaani hech chaar din ki bahaar hai saari ye takabbur hai yaar-e-jaani hech dil ke haathon 'haqir' jhagDon mein meri guzri sadaa javaani hech"