badan par nai fasl aane lagi — Adil Mansuri

"pahlu ke aar-paar guzartaa huaa saa ho ik shakhs aaine mein utartaa huaa saa ho jiitaa huaa saa ho kabhi martaa huaa saa ho ik shahr apne aap se Dartaa huaa saa ho saare kabira aap hi kartaa huaa saa ho ilzaam dusre hi pe dhartaa huaa saa ho har ik nayaa khayaal jo Tapke hai zehn se yuun lag rahaa hai jaise ki bartaa huaa saa ho qailula kar rahe hon kisi niim ke tale maidaan mein rakhsh-e-umr bhi chartaa huaa saa ho maashuq aisaa DhunDiye qahtur-rijaal mein har baat mein agartaa magartaa huaa saa ho phir baad mein vo qatl bhi kar de to harj kyaa lekin vo pahle pyaar bhi kartaa huaa saa ho gar daad tu na de na sahi gaaliyaan sahi apnaa bhi koi aib hunartaa huaa saa ho"

"jo chiiz thi kamre mein vo be-rabt paDi thi tanhaai-e-shab band-e-qabaa khol rahi thi aavaaz ki divaar bhi chup-chaap khaDi thi khiDki se jo dekhaa to gali uungh rahi thi baalon ne tiraa lams to mahsus kiyaa thaa lekin ye khabar dil ne baDi der se di thi haathon mein nayaa chaand paDaa haanp rahaa thaa raanon pe barahna si nami reing rahi thi yaadon ne use toD diyaa maar ke patthar aaine ki khandaq mein jo parchhaain paDi thi duniyaa ki guzarte hue paDti thiin nigaahein shishe ki jagah khiDki mein rusvaai jaDi thi TuuTi hui mehraab se gumbad ke khanDar tak ik buDhe moazzin ki sadaa guunj rahi thi"

"har khvaab kaali raat ke saanche mein Dhaal kar ye kaun chhup gayaa hai sitaare uchhaal kar aaise Dare hue hain zamaane ki chaal se ghar mein bhi paanv rakhte hain ham to sambhaal kar khaana-kharaabiyon mein tiraa bhi pata nahin tujh ko bhi kyaa milaa hamein ghar se nikaal kar jhulsaa gayaa hai kaaghzi chehron ki daastaan jalti hui khamoshiyaan lafzon mein Dhaal kar ye phuul khud hi suukh kar aaeinge khaak par tu apne haath se na inhein paaemaal kar"

"phir kisi khvaab ke parde se pukaaraa jaaun phir kisi yaad ki talvaar se maaraa jaaun phir koi vusat-e-aafaaq pe saaya Daale phir kisi aankh ke nuqte mein utaaraa jaaun din ke hangaamon mein daaman kahin mailaa ho jaae raat ki nuqrai aatish mein nikhaaraa jaaun khushk khoe hue gumnaam jazire ki tarah dard ke kaale samundar se ubhaaraa jaaun apni khoi hui jannat kaa talabgaar banun dast-e-yazdaan se gunahgaar sanvaaraa jaaun"

"saDkon par suraj utraa saaya saaya TuuT gayaa jab gul kaa siina chiraa khushbu kaa kaanTaa niklaa tu kis ke kamre mein thi main tere kamre mein thaa khiDki ne aankhein kholi darvaaze kaa dil dhaDkaa dil ki andhi khandaq mein khvaahish kaa taaraa TuuTaa jism ke kaale jangal mein lazzat kaa chitaa lapkaa phir baalon mein raat hui phir haathon mein chaand khilaa"

"zamin chhoD kar main kidhar jaaungaa andheron ke andar utar jaaungaa miri pattiyaan saari sukhi huiin nae mausamon mein bikhar jaaungaa agar aa gayaa aaina saamne to apne hi chehre se Dar jaaungaa vo ik aankh jo meri apni bhi hai na aai nazar to kidhar jaaungaa vo ik shakhs aavaaz degaa agar main khaali saDak par Thahar jaaungaa palaT kar na paayaa kisi ko agar to apni hi aahaT se Dar jaaungaa tiri zaat mein saans li hai sadaa tujhe chhoD kar main kidhar jaaungaa"

"vo mujhe zindagi bataataa hai phir bhalaa kyon nazar churaataa hai main usi ko uThaa rahaa thaa par vo mujhe hi faqat giraataa hai yaad us ko kiyaa yahaan main ne par mujhe vo vahaan bhulaataa hai raaz saare bataa diye main ne kyon magar raaz vo chhupaataa hai log masruf hain mohabbat mein aur vo dil miraa dukhaataa hai"

"dil shaad nahin karte aabaad nahin karte mahsus ye hotaa hai vo yaad nahin karte naashaad zamaane ke dil shaad nahin karte kam-aql parindon ko aazaad nahin karte mohtaaj-e-karam aksar rahte hain gharibon ke jo log gharibon ki imdaad nahin karte kuchh log shikaayat ko haq apnaa samajhte hain kuchh log kabhi tum se fariyaad nahin karte ham apne iraadon mein rakhte hain tavaanaai ham daad ke taalib ko bedaad nahin karte jo aap ki niyyat kaa kuchh ilm hamein hotaa ham apni mohabbat ko barbaad nahin karte is daur-e-siyaasat mein 'mahmud' qayaamat hai ahbaab jo karte hain jallaad nahin karte"

"Tuut kar ab sanvar gayaa huun main is tarah se bikhar gayaa huun main jo tire naam ki gali hai vo us gali se guzar gayaa huun main yaadein teri sameT laayaa huun aaj jab se udhar gayaa huun main khud mukarnaa sikhaa diyaa us ne phir kahaa ki mukar gayaa huun main kal talak jo na kar sakaa thaa main aaj vo kaam kar gayaa huun main yuun kahin main nahin Thahartaa par tere dar par Thahar gayaa huun main"

"bistar-e-karb pe jab niind jalaai main ne tab kisi khvaab ki buniyaad uThaai main ne zakhm aise the ki har shakhs ke aage rakkhe baat aisi thi ki khud se bhi chhupaai main ne hurmat-e-gham ke liye khud ko aziyyat bakhshi phir usi dard se taskin bhi paai main ne main ne zakhmon ko kuredaa unhein taaza rakkhaa tab kahin dasht mein ki naghma-saraai main ne apni khiDki se yunhi khud ko pukaaraa kal shab aur phir khud ko vo aavaaz sunaai main ne jaane vaale se rag-e-jaan kaa bhi rishta thaa 'samir' ye samajhne mein bahut der lagaai main ne"

"murattab aur bhi ik goshvaara ho rahaa hai to kyaa hai gar abhi ham ko khasaara ho rahaa hai hamaare paas to ham se ziyaada tu nahin thaa so tu kyaa ab to khud se bhi kinaara ho rahaa hai hamaare khvaab mein ahmiyat-e-shab thi ziyaada so ab vo khvaab aankhon mein sitaara ho rahaa hai tumhaari aarzu hone se pahle bhi to ham the guzaara ho rahaa thaa so guzaara ho rahaa hai hayaa-aalud aankhein hain na aanchal hai na chilman ye kis viraan duniyaa kaa nazaara ho rahaa hai abhi ham faisla karne ki ujlat mein nahin hain magar lagtaa hai jiine se khasaara ho rahaa hai khalaa se is zamin par sang-rezo ki ye baarish kisi jaanib se kyaa koi ishaara ho rahaa hai"

"choT par choT khaa rahaa huun main 'aadatan muskuraa rahaa huun main us ke uupar to kuchh asar hi nahin apnaa dil kyon jalaa rahaa huun main aaj tanhaai mein jo baiThe ho kyaa tumhein yaad aa rahaa huun main kaun aaegaa mujh se milne ko apnaa ghar kyon sajaa rahaa huun main aaj ji bhar ke dekh lo mujh ko ab bahut duur jaa rahaa huun main kyaa tumhein ab bhi kuchh shikaayat hai ab to sab kuchh kamaa rahaa huun main haath mein Digriyaan sajaae hue Thokarein kitni khaa rahaa huun main ab mujhe peT in se bharnaa hai ye jo khanjar banaa rahaa huun main kal koi is ko bhi na chhoDegaa ye jo paudaa lagaa rahaa huun main"