mohabbaton ke nae daaeron mein rahtaa huun — Ahtamam Sadiq

"kab kahaa tir-e-jigar paar buraa lagtaa hai us ki nazron kaa bhalaa vaar buraa lagtaa hai apne baare mein kahun kuchh to mujhe kahti hai gul ke pahlu mein kabhi khaar buraa lagtaa hai teri galiyon se jo guzraa huun to ab har rasta khvaah kitnaa bhi ho hamvaar buraa lagtaa hai niind ke maare hue dasht-zada khvaabon ko yaar har dida-e-bedaar buraa lagtaa hai tum nahin ho to zamaane ko buraa huun jaise aaine ke binaa zangaar buraa lagtaa hai tujh ko hai 'ilm ki ham jaise junun-zaadon ko koi ho teraa giraftaar buraa lagtaa hai itnaa khaamosh-tabi'at huun azal se 'saadiq' mujh ko har saahib-e-guftaar buraa lagtaa hai"

"ye shikasta saa jo kuchh haal mire andar hai koi to hai ki jo paamaal mire andar hai mere andar thaa tire saath guzaaraa lamha aur ab tanhaa mah-o-saal mire andar hai roz martaa hai koi bhuuk se mere andar aisaa lagtaa hai ki bangaal mire andar hai mere chehre pe koi aur nahin hai chehra mere zaahir kaa khad-o-khaal mire andar hai fikr-dar-fikr jo rah-rah ke ulajh paDtaa huun shiddat-e-gham kaa koi jaal mire andar hai kyaa kahaa jaan miri jaaegi furqat ke taiin yaa'ni vo jo hai miraa kaal mire andar hai sab luTaa kar bhi bharaa rahtaa hai daaman 'saadiq' kyaa ghani hai ye jo kangaal mire andar hai"

"teri mahfil mein jo ham dard ke maare aae ahl-e-dastaar bhi dastaar utaare aae kitni muddat pe miri jhiil ki viraani gai kitni muddat pe yahaan phir se shikaare aae jo sukun the vo samundar ne sabhi dhaar liye aur dariyaaon ke daaman mein kinaare aae us ne is baar nai tarz ki kheli baazi mere gham ab ke nae ruup ko dhaare aae ab udaasi hai na vahshat hai na gham hai na qazaa saans aae bhi to phir kis ke sahaare aae aakhiri saans talak duniyaa nahin aai samajh zindagi ke mujhe ab tak na guzaare aae raqs-e-vahshat vo kiyaa saari hadein TuuT gaiin ik zaraa dil ki taraf se jo ishaare aae is se baDh kar nahin ho saktaa mohabbat kaa subut saans-dar-saans faqat aap pe haare aae naf' nuqsaan ho 'saadiq' to karein bhi tafriq apne hisse to khasaare hi khasaare aae"

"dil ki hasti kaa kyaa huaa hogaa jab koi aaina huaa hogaa pahle rukh ki chamak baDhi hogi phir koi haadisa huaa hogaa mil gayaa 'ishq tujh ko tere saath phir koi mo'jiza huaa hogaa dard bhi ruThaa hai kai din se mujh se kuchh to buraa huaa hogaa kaise kartaa 'adu mujhe mismaar yaar meraa milaa huaa hogaa dekho kyaa ho gayaa mukammal 'ishq dekho kurtaa phaTaa huaa hogaa teraa 'saadiq' shikasta saa hai kahin raaste mein paDaa huaa hogaa"

"jalne lag jaataa hai khvaabon kaa nagar shaam ke baa'd kitnaa mushkil hai ye jazbon kaa safar shaam ke baa'd 'ain-mumkin hai mulaaqaat miri vahshat se aisaa kar tu ki mire dil mein utar shaam ke baa'd hamla-zan hijr ki baabat koi puchhe mujh se lene aae to koi meri khabar shaam ke baa'd din ko to yaar kaa zikr aur hujum-e-yaaraan shaam ho jaaegi is taur magar shaam ke baa'd ik tiraa rog ghuTan aur sulagte saae aise ho jaataa hai ye jism khanDar shaam ke baa'd"

"tu jinhein kahtaa hai aaina-e-sahraai dikhaa main kahin huun ki nahin laa mujhe binaai dikhaa saans ruk jaae miri itni bhi taakhir na kar apne bimaar pe kuchh apni masihaai dikhaa naasehaa dil pe na guzri ho to baatein na banaa jab koi chhoD ke jaae to shakebaai dikhaa soch lo ghar se nikalte hue ab ke 'aashiq puchhte pahle hain aanchal mein tu kyaa laai dikhaa jaanne vaale nazar aae hazaaron lekin is bhare shahr mein koi na shanaasaai dikhaa yunhi to hotaa nahin 'ishq-sahifon kaa nuzul pahle gham jhel yaa phir chashm-e-tamannaai dikhaa sirf daa’von se koi baat nahin ban sakti laa ke 'saadiq' saa koi ik sar-e-saudaai dikhaa"

"raftagaan ki sadaa nahin main huun ye tiraa vaahima nahin main huun tere maazi ke saath dafn kahin meraa ik vaaqi'a nahin main huun kyaa milaa intihaa-pasandi se kyaa main tere sivaa nahin main huun ek muddat mein jaa ke mujh pe khulaa chaand hasrat-zada nahin main huun us ne mujh ko muhaal jaan liyaa main ye kahtaa rahaa nahin main huun main hi 'ujlat mein aa gayaa thaa idhar ye zamaana nayaa nahin main huun meri vahshat se Dar gae shaayad yaar baad-e-fanaa nahin main huun main tire saath rah gayaa huun kahin vaqt Thahraa huaa nahin main huun gaahe gaahe sukhan zaruri hai saamne aaina nahin main huun sarsari kyuun guzartaa hai mujh se ye miraa maajraa nahin main huun us ne puchhaa kahaan gayaa vo shakhs kyaa bataataa ki thaa nahin main huun ye kise dekhtaa hai mujh se udhar tere aage khalaa nahin main huun"

"phir khuun mein vahshat raqsaan hai tajdid sitam karne ke liye ik taaza zakhm ki khvaahish hai ik sadma kam karne ke liye ham din-bhar duniyaa-daari mein hans hans ke baatein karte hain phir saari raat pighalte hain ik ashk raqam karne ke liye vo vasl ki jis ne ham donon ko yaksar be-buniyaad kiyaa ab fursat hai aa mil baiThein us vasl kaa gham karne ke liye ik kaari zakhm ki chaahat ne kyaa kyaa na hamein gulzaar kiyaa ham kis kis se mansub hue ik hijr baham karne ke liye insaan ke jiine marne ke majburi ke mukhtaari ke ye saare khel zaruri hain taamir adam karne ke liye"

"nahin piitaa main par navaazish hui hai baDi mausamon ki sifaarish hui hai bahut din se sahraa ke jaisaa ye dil hai na baadal ghire hain na baarish hui hai yahaan hai bulandi jo kirdaar ki to vahaan khaal-o-khad ki numaaish hui hai tiri jhiil jaisi jo dekhi hain aankhein miri Duub jaane ki khvaahish hui hai chhalaktaa nahin khuun zakhmon se aise kahin naakhunon ki bhi kaavish hui hai hamein 'ishq mein mubtalaa kar rahe hain nazar aur dil mein ye saazish hui hai vahaan dushmanon ki baDi yaad aai jahaan doston ki navaazish hui hai vafaa-daariyon kaa sila mil rahaa hai hamaari sadaa aazmaaish hui hai pareshaaniyon mein jo ham mubtalaa hain yaqinan koi ham se laghzish hui hai vahin apni aankhon ko ham chhoD aae jahaan manzaron ki numaaish hui hai raqibon ko hai chhuT mahfil mein un ki mire aane jaane pe bandish hui hai ghazal kahnaa 'faaruq' main chhoD dungaa isi baat par un se ranjish hui hai"

"jab se aayaa huun tere gaanv mein rang hi rang hain fazaaon mein aa ki dukh sukh ki koi baat karein baiTh kar shishamon ki chhaanv mein main bhi kartaa huun zabt ki koshish to bhi takhfif kar adaaon mein vo tiraa dafatan bichhaD jaanaa vo miraa dekhnaa khalaaon mein ho agar koi gosh-bar-aavaaz ik khamoshi bhi hai sadaaon mein yahi mere liye ghanimat hai saans le luun khuli fazaaon mein"

"bas ki ik lams ki ummid pe vaare hue hain so tire saamne ye khaak pasaare hue hain jaane kab un ko bujhaa baiThe koi baad-e-alam sar-e-mizhgaan-e-tamannaa jo sitaare hue hain zindagi tu bhi hamein vaise hi ik roz guzaar jis tarah ham tujhe barson se guzaare hue hain nit-nae naqsh karein us pe aziyyat ke raqam aa ki ham takhti-e-dil apni pachaare hue hain kab kuchal jaaein kisi paanv se ham barg-e-vajud vaqt ki dhuup mein vaise hi karaare hue hain jaante hain ki tu hi ishq-badan ko hai libaas ham tiraa ruup jo aashuftagi dhaare hue hain apni jurat ki sataaish ho ki ham chob-mizaaj rabt rakhte hain sadaa un se jo aare hue hain"

"phir bahaar aai hai phir josh mein saudaa hogaa zakhm-e-derinaa se phir khuun Tapaktaa hogaa biiti baaton ke vo naasur hare phir honge baat niklegi to phir baat ko rakhnaa hogaa yurishein kar ke umanD aaeingi suuni shaamein laakh bhaTkein kisi unvaan na saveraa hogaa ji ko samjhaaeinge matvaali havaa ke jhonke phir koi laakh sambhaale na sambhalnaa hogaa kaisi rut aai havaa chalti hai ji Doltaa hai ab to hansnaa bhi taDapne kaa bahaanaa hogaa TuuT jaaegaa ye laachaari-e-daaem kaa fusun aur is tarah ki jaise koi aataa hogaa dil dhaDakne ki sadaa aaegi sune-pan mein duur baadal kahin parbat pe garajtaa hogaa"