shiddat kaa dard hijr ho lekin davaa na ho — Mohammad Mustahsan Jami

"sunaa kisi ne na girya-e-mukhtasar hamaaraa huaa hai chhalni chhanan chhanan se jigar hamaaraa ye zard vahshat hamaare baatin mein ras gai hai tavil muddat se ham pe haavi hai Dar hamaaraa tire qabile se jang laD ke shahid honge kaTaa huaa hi milegaa tujh ko ye sar hamaaraa sabhi manaazil pe jaa ke vaapas palaT rahe hain ki raaegaan jaa rahaa hai har ik safar hamaaraa chahaar jaanib pahaaD masti se jhumte hon hasin shaadaab vaadiyon mein ho ghar hamaaraa hui nahin hai kisi taraf se bhi ajnabiyyat huaa thaa in jangalon se pahle guzar hamaaraa khabar mili hai vafaa ki sarhad pe mar gayaa hai vo ik sipaahi jo thaa bahut mo'atabar hamaaraa karein to kis tarah baat ashaar pe hamaare khulaa nahin hai kisi pe ab tak hunar hamaaraa"

"kiyaa hai hijr mein daaman ko taar aahista-aahista huaa huun ek se main be-shumaar aahista-aahista ham ahl-e-hijr vahshat mein kabhi maskan na badleinge uThaa leinge tamannaaon kaa baar aahista-aahista bhale jaisi bhi mushkil ho safon mein muntazir rahnaa vo karte hain ghulaamon ko shumaar aahista-aahista yahaan pe sabza-o-gul mustaqil bilkul nahin rahte mire gulshan mein aati hai bahaar aahista-aahista abhi in pe tasallut hai ajab duniyaa-e-vahshat kaa palaT aaeinge tere jaan-nisaar aahista-aahista hamaari zindagaani karb ke aalam mein guzri hai hamein hijrat ke lamhon se guzaar aahista-aahista miri is girya-o-zaari kaa 'jaami' khaas maqsad hai bichhaDte jaa rahe hain mere yaar aahista-aahista"

"khushbu hai agar yaar to khushbu pe fidaa main vo husn charaaghon kaa charaaghon ki ziyaa main kartaa huun safar guzre zamaanon kaa shab-o-roz rahtaa nahin ik lamha buzurgon se judaa main duniyaa ke jaziron mein tiraa bhed na paayaa haalaanki khalaaon mein bhi har samt gayaa main shaayad koi zarkhez bhanvar yaad kaa ubhraa kal raat kisi aankh se bahtaa hi rahaa main maare hain gham-e-zist ne pur-dard tamaanche lekin kisi manzil pe nahin thak ke giraa main hairat ki nigaahon se sabhi dekh rahe the jab kucha-e-jaanaan mein gayaa ban ke gadaa main 'jaami' miri guftaar kisi par na khuli thi sab log puraane the faqat ek nayaa main"

"jab peDon ki khidmat par maamur thaa main 'jaami' puure jangal mein mashhur thaa main mujhe khabar hai kyaa kuchh hai buniyaadon mein teri basti kaa pahlaa mazdur thaa main kuchh na kuchh to faasla thaa jo maapaa gayaa chaahe paas thaa chaahe tujh se duur thaa main ek sunahre nuur ne mujh mein rang bhare mujh mein koi rang na thaa be-nur thaa main soch rahaa huun kitnaa raushan manzar thaa tu zaakir thaa aur jahaan mazkur thaa main sar pe jab tak maan kaa dast-e-shafqat thaa rab shaahid hai har ik dukh se duur thaa main teri ek nazar se main tabdil huaa ishq se pahle had-darja maghrur thaa main"

"ik main huun jo hotaa nahin divaana-e-duniyaa hai raas har ik shakhs ko viraana-e-duniyaa sab aarzi lazzaat ke divaane hue hain ik roz kabhi dekhiye mai-khaana-e-duniyaa buniyaad mein jis chiiz ke hain maaddi anaasir aabaad bhalaa kaise ho vo khaana-e-duniyaa darvesh huun aur duur hi rahtaa huun hamesha so mujh ko mayassar nahin kaashaana-e-duniyaa duniyaavi khuraafaat se nafrat thi azal se main sun nahin paayaa kabhi afsaana-e-duniyaa"

"is kaifiyat ki koi nahin hai khabar mujhe ye kaun kar rahaa hai musalsal basar mujhe raas aa gayaa hai dasht kaa paiham safar mujhe rahnaa hai is dayaar mein ab umr-bhar mujhe bikhraao apni zaat kaa mujh ko pasand hai jitnaa bhi TuuT jaaun sameTaa na kar mujhe apni to koi samt nahin raasta nahin jaanaa hai tere saath tu le jaa jidhar mujhe haalat ko meri dekh pareshaan yuun na ho hairaan khaDe hain dekh ke sab naqsh-gar mujhe is ke sivaa koi bhi Thikaana nahin miraa baahu sakhi kaa yaad hai har pal nagar mujhe"

"dil shaad nahin karte aabaad nahin karte mahsus ye hotaa hai vo yaad nahin karte naashaad zamaane ke dil shaad nahin karte kam-aql parindon ko aazaad nahin karte mohtaaj-e-karam aksar rahte hain gharibon ke jo log gharibon ki imdaad nahin karte kuchh log shikaayat ko haq apnaa samajhte hain kuchh log kabhi tum se fariyaad nahin karte ham apne iraadon mein rakhte hain tavaanaai ham daad ke taalib ko bedaad nahin karte jo aap ki niyyat kaa kuchh ilm hamein hotaa ham apni mohabbat ko barbaad nahin karte is daur-e-siyaasat mein 'mahmud' qayaamat hai ahbaab jo karte hain jallaad nahin karte"

"kyaa apne shahr mein koi aisaa makaan hai samjhun jise ki asl mein vo ik jahaan hai DhunDo haqiqat is mein na afsaana hi koi is kaa bayaan kuchh nahin us kaa bayaan hai apnaa shi'aar ab hai faqat amn-dushmani ye aur baat faakhta apnaa nishaan hai likhne ko ek harf na kahne ko ek lafz yuun to qalam hai haath mein munh mein zabaan hai vo lams jis ke baa'd zamaane guzar gae vo lams ab bhi taaza hai ab bhi javaan hai ho jaaegaa yaqin sabhon kaa hi kal jo aaj meraa yaqin aur sabhon kaa gumaan hai shatranj ki bisaat ki thi apni mez par shatranj ki bisaat ki saaraa jahaan hai"

"charaaghon se kuchh to churaayaa gayaa hai jo thi aag us ko bujhaayaa gayaa hai likhaa thaa jinhein sirf apne lahu se mire un khaton ko jalaayaa gayaa hai hazaaron daf'a us ne ki bevafaai mujhe bevafaa kyon bataayaa gayaa hai mujhe khud nikalnaa paDaa apne ghar se ye mat sochnaa ki bhagaayaa gayaa hai khabar ye mili hai ki mere hi ghar mein kisi ghair ko ab basaayaa gayaa hai mujhe hi sataa kar mujhe hi rulaa kar ye ilzaam mujh par lagaayaa gayaa hai tumhein kyaa bataaun mohabbat mein 'raavat' mujhe kis qadar aazmaayaa gayaa hai"

"bahr-e-rang-e-daastaan rahne diyaa ik tajassus darmiyaan rahne diyaa ab zamin ban kar bichhaa jaataa hai vo main ne jis ko aasmaan rahne diyaa raushni aur khvaab saare hech the apni aankhon mein dhuaan rahne diyaa vo jagah raushan nahin hogi kabhi is mohabbat ko jahaan rahne diyaa maan ne maathaa chuum kar rukhsat kiyaa maamtaa kaa saaebaan rahne diyaa kul milaa ke ye hai raaz-e-tishnagi ham ne dil ko sargiraan rahne diyaa khud hami paamaal Thahre shauq se khush-gumaan ko khush-gumaan rahne diyaa"

"tere tasavvuraat se aage nahin gayaa ye dil tavahhumaat se aage nahin gayaa jo biich raah chhoD gayaa shukr hai vo shakhs meri tavaqqu'aat se aage nahin gayaa shaayad use pasand thiin jhuTi numaaishein lekin main dil ki baat se aage nahin gayaa jazbaat-e-dil ko vo bhi na kuchh Dhang de sakaa main bhi takallufaat se aage nahin gayaa tohfa bhi us ke vaaste kangan liyaa 'zarim' vallah main us ke haath se aage nahin gayaa"

"ajab mushkil ki dil kaa haal aisaa ho gayaa hai sabhi ab puchhte hain mujh se ye kyaa ho gayaa hai main ye samjhaa ki gham kaa ab mudaavaa ho gayaa hai kuredaa zakhm to ye aur taaza ho gayaa hai kabhi fursat mile to khud se main baatein karungaa mujhe khud se mile bhi to zamaana ho gayaa hai magar ab sochtaa huun toD duun saare maraasim magar dil bhi tire gham se shanaasaa ho gayaa hai miri barbaad hasti kaa nazaara dekhne ko vo aae aur gham mein phir izaafa ho gayaa hai isi dariyaa mein ab khud ko Dubonaa chaahtaa huun ki is dil kaa talaatum mein kinaare ho gayaa hai chalo bhi 'qalb' ab tum dusraa dekho Thikaanaa ki is basti mein apnaa sab paraayaa ho gayaa hai"