marne kaa pata de mire jiine kaa pata de — Sarmad Sahbai

"kaun hai kis ne pukaaraa hai sadaa kaise hui ye kiran taariki-e-shab se rihaa kaise hui ek ik pal mein utar kar sochtaa rahtaa huun main nuur kis kaa hai mire khuun mein ziyaa kaise hui khvaahishein aaein kahaan se kyuun uchhaltaa hai lahu rut hari kyunkar hui paagal havaa kaise hui us ke jaane kaa yaqin to hai magar uljhan mein huun phuul ke haathon se ye khush-bu judaa kaise hui vo machaa hai ghul ki barham ho gai hain suratein kaun kis kis se ye puchhegaa khataa kaise hui jism o jaan kaa faasla hai haasil-e-gard-e-safar justuju-e-zindagi teraa pataa kaise hui hans diyaa thaa sun ke vo 'sarmad' bas itnaa yaad hai baat us ke saamne lekin adaa kaise hui"

"raushni rangon mein simTaa huaa dhokaa hi na ho main jise jism samajhtaa huun vo saayaa hi na ho aaina TuuT gayaa chuntaa huun reza reza isi aaine mein meraa kahin chehraa hi na ho main to divaar ke is paar ravaan huun kab se koi divaar ke us paar bhi chaltaa hi na ho vo jo suntaa hai miri baat baDe ghaur ke saath baad jaane ke mire mujh pe vo hanstaa hi na ho jaagti aankhon mein kyuun phailtaa jaataa hai khalaa khaa gai hai jise duuri tiraa rasta hi na ho moD har raah pe paanv se lipaT jaate hain vo mujhe chhoD ke chal de kahin aisaa hi na ho us ke milne pe bhi mahsus huaa hai 'sarmad' us ne dekhaa hi na ho main ne bulaayaa hi na ho"

"kis shakhs ki talaash mein sar phoDti rahi sunsaan jangalon mein havaa chikhti rahi maathe pe dhuul haath mein kaanTe liye hayaat sahraa se khushbuon kaa pata puchhti rahi dil bujh gayaa to raat ki surat thi zindagi jab tak ye ik charaagh rahaa raushni rahi main aaj bhi na us se koi baat kar sakaa lafzon ke pattharon mein tamannaa dabi rahi sunsaan raaston pe bhaTakti thi chaandni shab bhar na jaane kis ke liye jaagti rahi vo peD jo haraa thaa bahaaron ke baad bhi hairat se us ko zard havaa dekhti rahi suraj na koi meri gali mein utar sakaa shab bhar mire makaan ki khiDki khuli rahi"

"sadaa-e-girya jo har shaam ghar se aati hai ye baazgasht hai divaar-o-dar se aati hai kabhi jo aaya nahin aur kabhi na aaegaa usi ki chaap har ik rah-guzar se aati hai kaDakti dhuup mein bhi dil ko ik tasalli hai na jaane chhaanv si ye kis shajar se aati hai jise bhi dekhein vo aaraaish-e-talab mein hai mataa'-e-be-talabi kis hunar se aati hai chamak damak hai vahi jagmagaate raston par phir itni tirgi yaa-rab kidhar se aati hai ye kaun log hain jo saath chal rahe hain mire ki bu-e-ghair mujhe ham-safar se aati hai shab-e-siyaah mein taara na hai charaagh koi jo raushni hai kisi chashm-e-tar se aati hai ye irti'aash-e-nafas hai ravish kitaabat ki jo raushnaai hai daagh-e-jigar se aati hai dikhaai deti hai tasvir-e-ghaib kab 'sarmad' nazar jo aati hai teri nazar se aati hai"

"dam junun ki had-e-intihaa pe Thahraa hai ye meraa dil hai abhi ibtidaa pe Thahraa hai usi ke lams se aab-o-havaa badalti hai tamaam manzar-e-jaan ik adaa pe Thahraa hai kanaar-e-kun se pare hai kahin vajud apnaa ye kaarvaan to ghubaar-e-sadaa pe Thahraa hai kuchh aur der numaaish hai shor-o-shar ki yahaan ye ik habaab hai mauj-e-fanaa pe Thahraa hai shuaa-e-subh bun-e-gosh mein utarti hai zavaal-e-mehr ki dast-e-hinaa pe Thahraa hai shab-e-siyaah sar-e-khaal mein simaTti hai sitaara TuuT ke band-e-qabaa pe Thahraa hai nafas nafas mein bhaDakti hai dil ki lau 'sarmad' ajab charaagh hai ye baam-e-hu pe Thahraa hai"

"aankhon se pare niind ki raftaar mein rahnaa har pal kisi naa-did ke didaar mein rahnaa kho jaanaa use dekh ke uryaan ke safar mein chhute hi use hajla-e-asraar mein rahnaa ik khvaab-e-darida ko rag-e-harf se siinaa phir le ke use kucha-o-baazaar mein rahnaa khud apne ko hi dekh ke hairaan saa honaa nargis ki tarah mausam-e-bimaar mein rahnaa marnaa yunhi abresham-o-kam-khvaab-e-havas mein dam toD ke zinda kabhi divaar mein rahnaa hasrat si liye khilqat-e-maasum mein phirnaa saazish ki tarah gardish-e-darbaar mein rahnaa hai bakht sitaaron kaa un aankhon mein chamaknaa aur gul kaa muqaddar lab-o-rukhsaar mein rahnaa raunaq si liye shahr ke raston pe bikharnaa tanhaai ki surat dar-o-divaar mein rahnaa 'sarmad' tapish-e-naar-e-sukhan mein huun ki mujh ko gul kartaa rahaa shola-o-angaar mein rahnaa"

"raftagaan ki sadaa nahin main huun ye tiraa vaahima nahin main huun tere maazi ke saath dafn kahin meraa ik vaaqi'a nahin main huun kyaa milaa intihaa-pasandi se kyaa main tere sivaa nahin main huun ek muddat mein jaa ke mujh pe khulaa chaand hasrat-zada nahin main huun us ne mujh ko muhaal jaan liyaa main ye kahtaa rahaa nahin main huun main hi 'ujlat mein aa gayaa thaa idhar ye zamaana nayaa nahin main huun meri vahshat se Dar gae shaayad yaar baad-e-fanaa nahin main huun main tire saath rah gayaa huun kahin vaqt Thahraa huaa nahin main huun gaahe gaahe sukhan zaruri hai saamne aaina nahin main huun sarsari kyuun guzartaa hai mujh se ye miraa maajraa nahin main huun us ne puchhaa kahaan gayaa vo shakhs kyaa bataataa ki thaa nahin main huun ye kise dekhtaa hai mujh se udhar tere aage khalaa nahin main huun"

"phir khuun mein vahshat raqsaan hai tajdid sitam karne ke liye ik taaza zakhm ki khvaahish hai ik sadma kam karne ke liye ham din-bhar duniyaa-daari mein hans hans ke baatein karte hain phir saari raat pighalte hain ik ashk raqam karne ke liye vo vasl ki jis ne ham donon ko yaksar be-buniyaad kiyaa ab fursat hai aa mil baiThein us vasl kaa gham karne ke liye ik kaari zakhm ki chaahat ne kyaa kyaa na hamein gulzaar kiyaa ham kis kis se mansub hue ik hijr baham karne ke liye insaan ke jiine marne ke majburi ke mukhtaari ke ye saare khel zaruri hain taamir adam karne ke liye"

"nahin piitaa main par navaazish hui hai baDi mausamon ki sifaarish hui hai bahut din se sahraa ke jaisaa ye dil hai na baadal ghire hain na baarish hui hai yahaan hai bulandi jo kirdaar ki to vahaan khaal-o-khad ki numaaish hui hai tiri jhiil jaisi jo dekhi hain aankhein miri Duub jaane ki khvaahish hui hai chhalaktaa nahin khuun zakhmon se aise kahin naakhunon ki bhi kaavish hui hai hamein 'ishq mein mubtalaa kar rahe hain nazar aur dil mein ye saazish hui hai vahaan dushmanon ki baDi yaad aai jahaan doston ki navaazish hui hai vafaa-daariyon kaa sila mil rahaa hai hamaari sadaa aazmaaish hui hai pareshaaniyon mein jo ham mubtalaa hain yaqinan koi ham se laghzish hui hai vahin apni aankhon ko ham chhoD aae jahaan manzaron ki numaaish hui hai raqibon ko hai chhuT mahfil mein un ki mire aane jaane pe bandish hui hai ghazal kahnaa 'faaruq' main chhoD dungaa isi baat par un se ranjish hui hai"

"jab se aayaa huun tere gaanv mein rang hi rang hain fazaaon mein aa ki dukh sukh ki koi baat karein baiTh kar shishamon ki chhaanv mein main bhi kartaa huun zabt ki koshish to bhi takhfif kar adaaon mein vo tiraa dafatan bichhaD jaanaa vo miraa dekhnaa khalaaon mein ho agar koi gosh-bar-aavaaz ik khamoshi bhi hai sadaaon mein yahi mere liye ghanimat hai saans le luun khuli fazaaon mein"

"bas ki ik lams ki ummid pe vaare hue hain so tire saamne ye khaak pasaare hue hain jaane kab un ko bujhaa baiThe koi baad-e-alam sar-e-mizhgaan-e-tamannaa jo sitaare hue hain zindagi tu bhi hamein vaise hi ik roz guzaar jis tarah ham tujhe barson se guzaare hue hain nit-nae naqsh karein us pe aziyyat ke raqam aa ki ham takhti-e-dil apni pachaare hue hain kab kuchal jaaein kisi paanv se ham barg-e-vajud vaqt ki dhuup mein vaise hi karaare hue hain jaante hain ki tu hi ishq-badan ko hai libaas ham tiraa ruup jo aashuftagi dhaare hue hain apni jurat ki sataaish ho ki ham chob-mizaaj rabt rakhte hain sadaa un se jo aare hue hain"

"phir bahaar aai hai phir josh mein saudaa hogaa zakhm-e-derinaa se phir khuun Tapaktaa hogaa biiti baaton ke vo naasur hare phir honge baat niklegi to phir baat ko rakhnaa hogaa yurishein kar ke umanD aaeingi suuni shaamein laakh bhaTkein kisi unvaan na saveraa hogaa ji ko samjhaaeinge matvaali havaa ke jhonke phir koi laakh sambhaale na sambhalnaa hogaa kaisi rut aai havaa chalti hai ji Doltaa hai ab to hansnaa bhi taDapne kaa bahaanaa hogaa TuuT jaaegaa ye laachaari-e-daaem kaa fusun aur is tarah ki jaise koi aataa hogaa dil dhaDakne ki sadaa aaegi sune-pan mein duur baadal kahin parbat pe garajtaa hogaa"