mire josh-e-gham ki hai ajab kahaani — Arzoo Lakhnavi

"ye daastaan-e-dil hai kyaa ho adaa zabaan se aansu Tapak rahe hain lafzein milein kahaan se hai rabt do dilon ko be-rabti-e-bayaan se kuchh vo kahein nazar se kuchh ham kahein zabaan se ye rote rote hansnaa tartib-e-zikr-e-gham hai aayaa huun ibtidaa par chheDaa thaa darmiyaan se haasil to zindagi kaa thi zindagi yahin ki ab main huun ik janaaza uThvaa do aastaan se is tul-e-khaamushi kaa zor-e-bayaan bhi dekhaa thi baat mere dil ki nikli tiri zabaan se jab husn khud-numaa hai aur ishq rakhna-afgan is kashmakash mein parda niklegaa darmiyaan se maidaan-e-imtihaan mein ai be-gharaz mohabbat dil ki zamin tu ne Takraa di aasmaan se us raazdaar-e-gham ki haalat na puchh jis ko kahnaa to hai bahut kuchh mahrum hai zabaan se ai jazb-e-shauq-e-manzil mamnun-e-ghair kyuun hon khud raasta badal kar bichhDaa huun kaarvaan se har gaam par ThiThaknaa har baar muD ke taknaa o muskuraane vaale kyaa le chalaa yahaan se zaahir fareb-e-vaada phir e'tibaar itnaa vo likh gayaa dilon par jo kah diyaa zabaan se aaankhon se baaghbaan ki shoale nikle rahe hain tinke dabaae munh mein niklaa huun aashiyaan se dil kaa sakun ganvaa kar hon aarzu pashemaan kuchh le ke rakh na chhoDaa kyuun jins-e-raaegaan se"

"jitnaa thaa sargarm-e-kaar utnaa hi dil naakaam thaa hosh jis kaa naam hai vo bhi junun-e-khaam thaa hosh kaa zaamin thaa saaqi kaif-parvar dil kaa shauq jaam thaa paas aur be-andesha-e-anjaam thaa khatm karti jald kyunkar ziist ki manzil ko saans pher koson kaa thaa lekin faasla ik gaam thaa josh-e-shorida-sari thaa taa-ba-vahm-e-ikhtiyaar thak ke dam TuuTaa to phir aaraam hi aaraam thaa ab kahaan vo aamad-o-raft-e-nafas ki shaah-raah ik kashaakash thi ki jis kaa zindagaani naam thaa chaunk kar khud manzar-e-hasti se aankhein pher liin hichkiyaan kaahe ko thiin poshida ik paighaam thaa gul huaa aakhir bhaDak kar shoala-e-josh-e-shabaab thi kaf-e-mauj-e-havaadis aur charaagh-e-shaam thaa be-jale kis tarah bantaa shama parvaane kaa dil vo use anjaam kyaa dete jo meraa kaam thaa tum ne khud naakaam rakh ke us ki himmat ki thi past aarzu-e-be-gunah par muft kaa ilzaam thaa"

"mujh ko dil qismat ne us ko husn-e-ghaarat-gar diyaa chuur kar de kyuun na vo shisha jise patthar diyaa us se taalib huun diyat kaa aap se matlab nahin jis ne gardan ek ko di ek ko khanjar diyaa thaa mukaafaat-e-amal ahbaab kaa husn-e-amal ye bhi aisaa qarz thaa jo aur se le kar diyaa ab na hai fikr-e-hifaazat aur na ziq-e-raf-e-kaar dene vaale ne diyaa aur meri khvaahish bhar diyaa girya-e-be-ikhtiyaar-e-gham bhi thaa fitri ilaaj jis ne thoDe josh ko har martaba kam kar diyaa jis mein kaif-e-gham nahin baaz aae aise dil se ham ye bhi duniyaa hai koi mai to na di saaghar diyaa 'aarzu' ik roz Dhaa detaa mujhe meraa hi zor ye bhi us ki kaarsaazi dil mein jis ne Dar diyaa"

"tumhein kyaa kaam naalon se tumhein kyaa kaam aahon se chhupaayaa ho gunaah-e-ishq to puchho gavaahon se main kajkol-e-dil-e-be-muddaaa le kar kahaan jaaun ye paighaam-e-talab kyuun unchi unchi baargaahon se zabaan ho ek ulfat ki to mumkin hai zabaan-bandi hui jo baat chupke ki vo kah Daali nigaahon se mohabbat andar andar ziist kaa naqsha palaTti hai yahi chalti hui saansein badal jaaeingi aahon se sanad be-aitmaadi ki hai qabl-e-imtihaan goyaa bayaan-e-haal kai pahle halaf lenaa gavaahon se mohabbat nek-o-bad ko sochne de ghair mumkin hai baDhi jab be-khudi phir kaun Dartaa hai gunaahon se hue jab aap se baahar phir ehsaas-e-dui kaisaa pata manzil kaa miltaa hai inhin gum-karda raahon se bataa sakti nahin ruidgi-e-sabza-o-gul bhi faqiron se paTe the ye gaDhe yaa baadshaahon se chhalakte zarf kaa khultaa bharam khotaa hai baat apni sukun paataa hai dil kaa dard naalon se na aahon se ye pahle soch lein aankhon mein lahraate hue aansu ki vo phir uTh bhi sakte hain jo gir jaaein nigaahon se milaa baiThaa hai sab mein kuchh magar munh se nahin kahtaa alag samjho tum apne 'aarzu' ko daad-khvaahon se"

"dil mein yaad-e-but-e-be-pir liye baiThaa huun yaani ik zulm ki tasvir liye baiThaa huun aah mein dard ki taasir liye baiThaa huun dil mein ik khuun bharaa tiir liye baiThaa huun ik zaraa si khalish-e-dard-e-jigar par ye ghamanD jaise kul ishq ki jaagir liye baiThaa huun hai mujhe saaz-e-tarab sokhta-saamaani-e-dil parda-e-khaak mein iksir liye baiThaa huun chuur shishe pe nazar paDte hi dil yaad aayaa miTne vaale tiri tasvir liye baiThaa huun qaid ko toD ke samjhaa ki sahaaraa toDaa haath mein paanv ki zanjir liye baiThaa huun 'aarzu' ho chuki sau martaba duniyaa bedaar aur main soi hui taqdir liye baiThaa huun"

"taDapte dil ko na le iztiraab letaa jaa paTak de saaghar-e-khaali sharaab letaa jaa vo haath maar palaT kar jo kar de kaam tamaam baDe 'azaab mein huun main savaab letaa jaa vo ban hi ghar se hai achchhaa sukun jis mein mile mujhe bhi o dil-e-khaana-kharaab letaa jaa mile ik aah kaa vaqfa to vaqt-e-purshish-e-haal har ik savaal kaa apne javaab letaa jaa naqaab uThaa ke kiyaa saamnaa to munh ko na pher dikhaa ke khvaab na aankhon se khvaab letaa jaa"

"vo mujhe zindagi bataataa hai phir bhalaa kyon nazar churaataa hai main usi ko uThaa rahaa thaa par vo mujhe hi faqat giraataa hai yaad us ko kiyaa yahaan main ne par mujhe vo vahaan bhulaataa hai raaz saare bataa diye main ne kyon magar raaz vo chhupaataa hai log masruf hain mohabbat mein aur vo dil miraa dukhaataa hai"

"dil shaad nahin karte aabaad nahin karte mahsus ye hotaa hai vo yaad nahin karte naashaad zamaane ke dil shaad nahin karte kam-aql parindon ko aazaad nahin karte mohtaaj-e-karam aksar rahte hain gharibon ke jo log gharibon ki imdaad nahin karte kuchh log shikaayat ko haq apnaa samajhte hain kuchh log kabhi tum se fariyaad nahin karte ham apne iraadon mein rakhte hain tavaanaai ham daad ke taalib ko bedaad nahin karte jo aap ki niyyat kaa kuchh ilm hamein hotaa ham apni mohabbat ko barbaad nahin karte is daur-e-siyaasat mein 'mahmud' qayaamat hai ahbaab jo karte hain jallaad nahin karte"

"Tuut kar ab sanvar gayaa huun main is tarah se bikhar gayaa huun main jo tire naam ki gali hai vo us gali se guzar gayaa huun main yaadein teri sameT laayaa huun aaj jab se udhar gayaa huun main khud mukarnaa sikhaa diyaa us ne phir kahaa ki mukar gayaa huun main kal talak jo na kar sakaa thaa main aaj vo kaam kar gayaa huun main yuun kahin main nahin Thahartaa par tere dar par Thahar gayaa huun main"

"bistar-e-karb pe jab niind jalaai main ne tab kisi khvaab ki buniyaad uThaai main ne zakhm aise the ki har shakhs ke aage rakkhe baat aisi thi ki khud se bhi chhupaai main ne hurmat-e-gham ke liye khud ko aziyyat bakhshi phir usi dard se taskin bhi paai main ne main ne zakhmon ko kuredaa unhein taaza rakkhaa tab kahin dasht mein ki naghma-saraai main ne apni khiDki se yunhi khud ko pukaaraa kal shab aur phir khud ko vo aavaaz sunaai main ne jaane vaale se rag-e-jaan kaa bhi rishta thaa 'samir' ye samajhne mein bahut der lagaai main ne"

"zindagi dushvaar hogi ye kabhi sochaa na thaa vo bagule gham ke uTThe jin kaa andesha na thaa saamne tum aa gae ho to bataa duun jaan-e-jaan jaise dil dhaDkaa thaa ab ki vaise dil dhaDkaa na thaa ye iraada kar liyaa thaa ham na bichhDeinge kabhi TuTeinge ik pal mein rishte ye kabhi sochaa na thaa yaad-e-maazi miT rahi hai vaqt ki raftaar se ab tasavvur mein hamaare koi bhi chehra na thaa sakht hairat ho rahi hai dekh kar apnaa vajud dhuup mein the sab ke saaye par miraa saayaa na thaa shauq-e-manzil dekh meri dekh meraa hausla shahr-e-dil ke raaston mein main kabhi Thahraa na thaa 'qalb' ko sahraa-navardi raas kyaa aati bhalaa vo kabhi aavaargi mein dar-ba-dar bhaTkaa na thaa"

"jahaan-e-dard-o-gham hai aur main huun tiraa naqsh-e-qadam hai aur main huun kisi ki aankh nam hai aur main huun vufur-e-shauq kam hai aur main huun mujhe hai daulat-e-kaunain haasil mire rab kaa karam hai aur main huun main apne aap ko pahchaantaa huun miraa apnaa bharam hai aur main huun yahi kyaa kam hai duniyaa-e-vafaa mein mujhe ehsaas-e-gham hai aur main huun kisi ki yaad kaa ehsaan hai mujh par sukun-e-dil baham hai aur main huun mujhe 'mahmud' koi Dar nahin hai miraa apnaa qalam hai aur main huun"