yaad karne kaa tumhein koi iraada bhi na thaa — Gulnar Aafreen

"shajar-e-umid bhi jal gayaa vo vafaa ki shaakh bhi jal gai mire dil kaa naqsha badal gayaa miri subh raat mein Dhal gai vahi zindagi jo bahar-nafas jo bahar-qadam mire saath thi kabhi meraa saath bhi chhoD kar miri manzilein bhi badal gai na vo aarzu hai na justuju na koi tasavvur-e-rang-o-bu liye dil mein daagh-e-gham-e-khizaan main chaman se duur nikal gai tiri chaal puuri na ho saki tiraa vaar khaali chalaa gayaa zaraa dekh gardish-e-aasmaan ki main girte girte sanbhal gai tiri chaahaton se sanvar gae ye mire jamaal ke aaine main gulaab ban ke mahak uThi main shafaq ke rang mein Dhal gai ye tilism-e-mausam-e-gul nahin ki ye mo'jiza hai bahaar kaa vo kali jo shaakh se gir gai vo sabaa ki god mein pal gai vahi saaat-e-gham-e-aarzu jo hamesha dil mein basi rahi hai khudaa kaa shukr ki 'aafrin' vo hamaare sar se to Tal gai"

"na saath degaa koi raah aashnaa meraa judaa hai saare zamaane se raasta meraa guzar ke aai huun main gham ke regzaaron se nazar udaas hai dil hai dukhaa huaa meraa na jaane kis liye qaatil ke ashk bhar aae faraaz-e-daar pe jab saamnaa huaa meraa dayaar-e-jaan mein farozaan rahegi sham-e-hayaat samajh liyaa tiri aankhon ne muddaaa meraa kiyaa hai pesh tujhe aansuon kaa nazraana hujum-e-shaam-e-alam aur dil jalaa meraa vo saaneha mire dil par guzar gayaa 'gulnaar' har ek harf-e-duaa be-sadaa huaa meraa"

"aansu bhi vahi karb ke saae bhi vahi hain ham gardish-e-dauraan ke sataae bhi vahi hain kyaa baat hai kyuun shahr mein ab ji nahin lagtaa haalaanki yahaan apne paraae bhi vahi hain auraaq-e-dil-o-jaan pe jinhein tum ne likhaa hai naghmaat-e-alam ham ne sunaae bhi vahi hain ai josh-e-junun dard kaa aalam bhi vahi hai ai vahshat-e-jaan dard ke saae bhi vahi hain dekhaa hai jinhein aah-ba-lab chaak-garebaan har daagh-e-alam dil mein chhupaae bhi vahi hain sau rang bikhereinge mohabbat ke shagufe 'gulnaar' chaman mein hamein laae bhi vahi hain"

"ai shahr-e-sitam-pesha bataa kis ko sadaa duun ab kaun rahaa hai jise paighaam-e-vafaa duun shaamil miri saanson mein hai sadiyon ki aziyyat aa gardish-e-dauraan main tujhe bhi to duaa duun ashkon ke guhar bhi to nahin paas mire ab main soch rahi huun gham-e-dauraan tujhe kyaa duun Darti huun bikhar jaaegi khaakistar-e-jaan bhi bujhte hue shoalon main tumhein kaise havaa duun vo log jo sargarm-e-takallum hain sar-e-bazm kaise unhein aadaab takallum ke sikhaa duun ai raat saraabon ke sivaa kuchh na milegaa main din ke ujaale mein agar shama jalaa duun 'gulnaar' sar-e-shaakh-e-chaman laala-o-gul ko de de vo ijaazat to mahakne ki adaa duun"

"aankh mein ashk liye khaak liye daaman mein ek divaana nazar aataa hai kab se ban mein mere ghar ke bhi dar-o-baam kabhi jaageinge dhuup niklegi kabhi to mire bhi aangan mein kahiye aaina-e-sad-fasl-e-bahaaraan tujh ko kitne phulon ki mahak hai tire pairaahan mein shab-e-taarik miraa raasta kyaa rokegi mire aanchal mein sitaare hain sahar daaman mein kin shahidon ke lahu ke ye farozaan hain charaagh raushni si jo hai zindaan ke har ik rauzan mein ahd-e-rafta ki tamannaa kaa fusun zinda hai dil-e-naakaam abhi tak tiri har dhaDkan mein hamein manzur nahin agli ravaayaat-e-junun baa-khirad ho gai 'gulnaar' divaana-pan mein"

"vo charaagh-e-zist ban kar raah mein jaltaa rahaa haath mein vo haath le kar umr bhar chaltaa rahaa ek aansu yaad kaa Tapkaa to dariyaa ban gayaa zindagi bhar mujh mein ek tufaan saa paltaa rahaa jaanti huun ab use main paa nahin sakti magar har jagah saae ki surat saath kyuun chaltaa rahaa jo meri nazron se ojhal ho chukaa muddat hui vo khayaalon mein basaa aur sher mein Dhaltaa rahaa ranj thaa 'gulnaar' mujh ko us ko bhi afsos thaa der tak rotaa rahaa aur haath bhi maltaa rahaa"

"phir khuun mein vahshat raqsaan hai tajdid sitam karne ke liye ik taaza zakhm ki khvaahish hai ik sadma kam karne ke liye ham din-bhar duniyaa-daari mein hans hans ke baatein karte hain phir saari raat pighalte hain ik ashk raqam karne ke liye vo vasl ki jis ne ham donon ko yaksar be-buniyaad kiyaa ab fursat hai aa mil baiThein us vasl kaa gham karne ke liye ik kaari zakhm ki chaahat ne kyaa kyaa na hamein gulzaar kiyaa ham kis kis se mansub hue ik hijr baham karne ke liye insaan ke jiine marne ke majburi ke mukhtaari ke ye saare khel zaruri hain taamir adam karne ke liye"

"chaand bhi khoyaa khoyaa saa hai taare bhi khvaabida hain aaj fazaa ke bojhal-pan se lahje bhi sanjida hain jaane kin kin logon se is dard ke kyaa kyaa rishte the hijr ki is aabaad saraa mein sab chehre naadida hain itne barson baad bhi donon kaise TuuT ke milte hain tu hai kitnaa saada-dil aur ham kitne pechida hain sun jaanaan ham tark-e-taalluq aur kisi din kar leinge aaj tujhe bhi ujlat si hai ham bhi kuchh ranjida hain kaanon mein ik sargoshi hai be-maani si sargoshi aankhon mein kuchh khvaab saje hain khvaab bhi umr-rasida hain ghar ki vo makhdush imaarat gir ke phir taamir hui ab aangan mein peD hain jitne saare shaakh burida hain is basti mein ek saDak hai jis se ham ko nafrat hai us ke niche pagDanDi hai jis ke ham girvida hain"

"raftagaan ki sadaa nahin main huun ye tiraa vaahima nahin main huun tere maazi ke saath dafn kahin meraa ik vaaqi'a nahin main huun kyaa milaa intihaa-pasandi se kyaa main tere sivaa nahin main huun ek muddat mein jaa ke mujh pe khulaa chaand hasrat-zada nahin main huun us ne mujh ko muhaal jaan liyaa main ye kahtaa rahaa nahin main huun main hi 'ujlat mein aa gayaa thaa idhar ye zamaana nayaa nahin main huun meri vahshat se Dar gae shaayad yaar baad-e-fanaa nahin main huun main tire saath rah gayaa huun kahin vaqt Thahraa huaa nahin main huun gaahe gaahe sukhan zaruri hai saamne aaina nahin main huun sarsari kyuun guzartaa hai mujh se ye miraa maajraa nahin main huun us ne puchhaa kahaan gayaa vo shakhs kyaa bataataa ki thaa nahin main huun ye kise dekhtaa hai mujh se udhar tere aage khalaa nahin main huun"

"dast-kash hon na mai-e-gul ke khush-aashaam abhi ki labaalab hain mah-o-mehr ke do-jaam abhi zehn mein saaqi hai mai-khaana hai hai jaam abhi hosh kahtaa huun ise hosh kaa kyaa kaam abhi mujh ko darkaar na hai kufr na islaam abhi sidhe sidhe hi chale aate hain paighaam abhi tu bhi baaqi tiri rahmat bhi hai baaqi saaqi rahne de hai mai-e-isyaan se baDaa kaam abhi khaal-o-gesu se hai ye silsila-e-raaz-o-niyaaz daana sad-daana ho ye daam ho sad-daam abhi ziist ke khvaab ki taabir abhi baaqi hai ibtidaa dekh chuke hai magar anjaam abhi rah-rav-e-ishq abhi duur hai mearaaj-e-habib rashk-e-manzil na huaa raah mein har gaam abhi zarra-zarra hai ik aatish-kada-e-nur kalim dekh agar tu na ho aatish-zada-e-baam abhi imtiyaaz-e-man-o-tu raaz-e-khafi hai lekin khaasgaan ke liye kahtaa huun sar-e-aam abhi aks ko zo'm hai be-misli-e-rang-o-bu kaa turfa ye hai ki muqaabil hai vo gulfaam abhi raaz-goi tiri 'aiman' hai gunaah-e-akbar maang le afv ki us kaa hai karam aam abhi"

"baad-e-shimaal chalne lagi ang ang mein lipTaa hai kaun mujh se ye patjhaD ke rang mein khvaahish ke kaarobaar se bachnaa muhaal hai utregaa tu bhi saath mire is surang mein main aandhiyon mein haath bhi pakDun tiraa to kyaa ik shaakh-e-be-siper huun havaaon ki jang mein 'raanjhaa' main 'ahd-e-nau kaa qabilon mein baT gayaa to 'hir' ban ke pi na saki zahr jhang mein garmaa sakin na chaahatein teraa kaThor jism har ek jal ke bujh gai tasvir sang mein aage 'musavvir' aag 'aqab mein hai ye sadaa pichhe na muD ke dekhnaa is dasht-e-sang mein"

"tifli piiri o naujavaani hech tiin din ki hai zindagaani hech umr-e-do-roza par ghamanD itnaa munimon ki hai lan-taraani hech raat thoDi hai aao pyaar karein subh ko hogi ye kahaani hech chaar din ki bahaar hai saari ye takabbur hai yaar-e-jaani hech dil ke haathon 'haqir' jhagDon mein meri guzri sadaa javaani hech"