bekasi jab kisi baazaar mein aa jaati hai — Nafas Ambalvi

"kaun si shaakh kaa pattaa thaa haraa bhuul gayaa peD se Tuut ke main apnaa pata bhuul gayaa main koi vaa’da-faraamosh nahin huun phir bhi mujh pe ilzaam hai main apnaa kahaa bhuul gayaa apne bachchon ke khilaune to use yaad rahe ghar mein bimaar paDi maan ki davaa bhuul gayaa kar to diin main ne charaaghon ki qataarein raushan hai zamaane ki magar tez havaa bhuul gayaa khauf-e-dozakh se Daraataa rahaa vaa'iz mujh ko aur khud apne gunaahon ki sazaa bhuul gayaa tujh se kuchh kaam thaa lekin tire ghar ke aage ab khaDaa soch rahaa huun ki main kyaa bhuul gayaa be-khudi had se jo guzri to main ik roz 'nafas' ghar se kyaa niklaa ki phir ghar kaa pata bhuul gayaa"

"dar-ba-dar ho ke dar se TuuT gayaa main to jaise safar se TuuT gayaa Dhal gai shaam ab kahaan jaaun jo ta'alluq thaa ghar se TuuT gayaa kuchh khabar bhi hai in havaaon ko zard paTTaa shajar se TuuT gayaa koi had bhi to ho bikharne ki khvaab dekhaa to Dar se TuuT gayaa tum ne naahaq uThaa liye patthar aaina to nazar se TuuT gayaa ahd ye thaa ki saath chalnaa hai phir bashar hi bashar se TuuT gayaa"

"baazi agarche ziist ki ham haar to gae lekin jo dil pe naqsh the aazaar to gae kitne shanaavaron ko ye dariyaa nigal gayaa tughyaaniyon mein duub ke ham paar to gae baarish kaa zor hai mire khasta makaan par lagtaa hai ab ke ye dar-o-divaar to gae ham log ab qadim numaaish ki chiiz hain baazaar se ab apne kharidaar to gae vo darmiyaan ghazal ke jo uTh kar chalaa gayaa ai bazm-e-shaa'iri tire me'yaar to gae lagtaa hai ab ke jaan hi jaaegi ek din is shaa'iri ke shauq mein ghar-baar to gae chal ai 'nafas' ki ham bhi kahin aur jaa basein do-chaar the jo shahr mein gham-khvaar to gae"

"pahle samundaron mein utaaraa gayaa mujhe phir pyaas ki hadon se guzaaraa gayaa mujhe dekhaa to kuchh nahin thaa vahaan dasht ke sivaa phir bhi lagaa ki jaise pukaaraa gayaa mujhe 'umr-e-ravaan ne puchh liyaa mujh se ek din kyon be-dili ke saath guzaaraa gayaa mujhe pahle vo meri maut pe khud mutmain huaa phir daar se zamin pe utaaraa gayaa mujhe baazi ko jitne ki havas mein bisaat par afsos jaan-bujh ke haaraa gayaa mujhe yuun hi main us ki bazm se uTh kar nahin gayaa dar-asl pahle us kaa ishaara gayaa mujhe kuchh main bhi tez-gaam nahin thaa kuchh ai 'nafas' pur-khaar raaston se guzaaraa gayaa mujhe"

"jitne bhi aae zinat-e-baazaar ho gae ik ham hi the jo saahib-e-kirdaar ho gae jhuTon pe tere shahr mein ilzaam tak nahin aur ham ne sach kahaa to gunahgaar ho gae jab bhi kahin charaagh jalaa hai sukut-e-shab sab log aandhiyon ke taraf-daar ho gae vo zaalimon ke saath hain mazlum be-amaan kaise hamaare ahd ke akhbaar ho gae khatre mein hai ab apne qabile ki aabru jo mukhbiron mein the vahi sardaar ho gae Tapkaa lahu 'nafas' ke badan se to yuun huaa qatre jahaan-jahaan gire ash'aar ho gae"

"thakan se tan-badan TuuTaa paDaa hai masaafat ko magar rasta paDaa hai lahu se tar-ba-tar hain paanv lekin hamein har haal mein chalnaa paDaa hai yahaan main tishnagi se jaan-balab huun udhar milon abhi sahraa paDaa hai koi saansein bhalaa kab tak kharide ye saudaa to bahut mahngaa paDaa hai ye raat ab tak nahin suljhi hai mujh se udhar din bhi abhi uljhaa paDaa hai main aakhir ab ise kaise sanbhaalun yahaan to ghar kaa ghar bikhraa paDaa hai bahut bechain saa rahtaa huun din-bhar sunaa hai gaanv mein sukhaa paDaa hai bulaataa hai mujhe aavaaz de kar vo mere ghar kaa jo malba paDaa hai miraa chandaa gayaa pardes jab se ye ghar aangan bahut suunaa paDaa hai bahut bezaar se lagte ho tum bhi asar tum par 'nafas' gahraa paDaa hai"

"vo mujhe zindagi bataataa hai phir bhalaa kyon nazar churaataa hai main usi ko uThaa rahaa thaa par vo mujhe hi faqat giraataa hai yaad us ko kiyaa yahaan main ne par mujhe vo vahaan bhulaataa hai raaz saare bataa diye main ne kyon magar raaz vo chhupaataa hai log masruf hain mohabbat mein aur vo dil miraa dukhaataa hai"

"tere tasavvuraat se aage nahin gayaa ye dil tavahhumaat se aage nahin gayaa jo biich raah chhoD gayaa shukr hai vo shakhs meri tavaqqu'aat se aage nahin gayaa shaayad use pasand thiin jhuTi numaaishein lekin main dil ki baat se aage nahin gayaa jazbaat-e-dil ko vo bhi na kuchh Dhang de sakaa main bhi takallufaat se aage nahin gayaa tohfa bhi us ke vaaste kangan liyaa 'zarim' vallah main us ke haath se aage nahin gayaa"

"taavil-e-ahd-e-fan hi to vahshat kaa hal nahin pesh-e-nazar junun hai yaaro ghazal nahin ab is ke baad ahd ki taarik raat hai ye ikhtitaam-e-shaam hai subh-e-azal nahin ai dost ishq mansab-e-fahm-o-shuur hai ye irtiqaa hai zehn kaa koi khalal nahin ik umr ratjagon ki aziyyat mein kaaT di ab mere khvaab niind kaa radd-e-amal nahin kyaa kyaa ataa-e-neamat-e-rabb-e-karim hai lekin 'samir' dard kaa nemul-badal nahin"

"na koi dost ho meraa na ho adu meraa tum apne munh se agar kah do mujh ko tu meraa fasurdagi mein junun-e-havaa-e-gul yaani khizaan ke daur mein saudaa-e-rang-o-bu meraa jo tum nahin to bahaar-e-jinaan mein khaak nahin bahut vasia hai daamaan-e-aarzu meraa nibhegi ai dil-e-aavaara ab na tujh se miri bas aaj se na main teraa huun aur na tu meraa banaa rahe hain vo jalve ki apne tasvirein dikhaa dikhaa ke tamaashaa-e-rang-o-bu meraa kisi ki zulf-e-siyah kah rahi hai khul khul kar ghaTaa ne rang uDaayaa hai hu-ba-hu meraa mah-e-siyaam kaa aur intizaam kyaa karte janaab-e-shaikh uDaa le gae subu meraa jafaa kaa rang judaa hai vafaa kaa rang judaa malo na dast-e-hinaai mein tum lahu meraa taDap rahi hai jo abr-e-siyaah mein bijli firaaq mein yahi naqsha thaa hu-ba-hu meraa suhaani raat hai chhiTki hai chaandni 'muztar' miri nigaah mein phirtaa hai maah-ru meraa"

"zindagi bojhal hui aazaar se jism jhuktaa jaa rahaa hai baar se doston ne is qadar dhoke diye aur raghbat baDh gai aghyaar se zindagi kaa ik nayaa imkaan huaa ik daricha khul gayaa divaar se ab bayaan kaise karun rudaad-e-gham kaam mushkil hai dil-e-naa-chaar se hijr ki raaton mein bahtaa hi rahaa ek naala chashm-e-dariyaa-baar se misl-e-majnun regzaaron mein rahe sar paTakte ret ki divaar se ham asiraan-e-mohabbat hain yahaan uljhe hain ab gesu-e-khamdaar se 'qalb' teri ghazlein yuun shaadaan karein dard nikle hai tire ashaar se"

"chaahe khoTe hain yaa khare hain ham Dast-e-qudrat ke laaDle hain ham 'aks-e-rafta ko dekhiye saahib kitne maa'sum lag rahe hain ham raat jivan kaa giit gaati hai khvaab-e-tanvim dekhte hain ham 'umr lag jaaegi sanbhalne mein kis bulandi se yuun gire hain ham ek hangaam hai taghayyur kaa kunj-e-nisyaan mein paDe hain ham ab bhi mehndi kaa rang gahraa hai sandalin haath par rache hain ham ik tamaashaa hai kaar-zaar-e-hayaat dekh kar ser ho chuke hain ham jhilmilaate hain aarzu ke kanval dil-jharoke se jhaankte hain ham"