mizaaj-e-dahr mein un kaa ishaara paae jaa — Fani Badayuni

"vaa-e-naadaani ye hasrat thi ki hotaa dar khulaa ham qafas raaz-e-asiri kyaa kahein kyunkar khulaa fursat-e-ranj-e-asiri di na un dhaDkon ne haae ab chhuri sayyaad ne li ab qafas kaa dar khulaa allaah allaah ik duaa-e-marg ke do do asar vaan khulaa baab-e-ijaabat yaan qafas kaa dar khulaa uf is aazaadi-e-be-hangaam ki majburiyaan main qafas ke paas yuun baiThaa hi rahtaa par khulaa ujlat-e-parvaaz jab milne bhi de raah-e-gurez yuun to khulne ko qafas kaa dar khulaa aksar khulaa band hai baab-e-qafas ho sar to paTke jaaiye ham ne dekhaa hai qafas ki tiliyon mein dar khulaa kam to kyaa sayyaad be-taabi sivaa ho jaaegi tu ne naahaq tiliyon mein rakh diyaa khanjar khulaa aasmaan garam-e-talaafi chaahiye kaisaa qafas bijliyon ke ik ishaare mein qafas kaa dar khulaa likh chuke ham jaa chukaa khat gar yahi haalat rahi haath mein aayaa qalam aur shauq kaa daftar khulaa dil mein zakhm ashkon mein khuun surat ba-bin-aalam-mapras vo nigah uf vo mizha naavak chhupaa nashtar khulaa dam-ba-khud sakte kaa aalam murdani chhaai hui rang meri zindagi kaa meri mayyat par khulaa dil mein teraa dhyaan ik muddat rahaa begaana-vaar khulte hi khulte khulaa aur kyaa hi sharmaa kar khulaa dekhiye kyaa gul khilaati hai bahaar ab ke baras khvaab mein 'faani' ne dekhaa hai qafas kaa dar khulaa"

"ziist kaa haasil banaayaa dil jo goyaa kuchh na thaa gham ne dil ko dil banaayaa varna kyaa thaa kuchh na thaa vo to mere saamne the dekhne ki der thi main ne aankhein band kar liin varna pardaa kuchh na thaa yaa alam-koshi rahi yaa khud-faraamoshi rahi dil kisi din dil na thaa yaa dard thaa yaa kuchh na thaa kuchh samajh kar khud hi ham ne jaan de di dil ke saath un ki nazron kaa abhi aisaa taqaazaa kuchh na thaa aap kaa divaana thaa ye iddaaa baatil sahi 'faani'-e-divaana divaana bhi thaa yaa kuchh na thaa"

"kuchh kam to huaa ranj-e-faraavaan-e-tamannaa aaghaaz-e-junun go nahin paayaan-e-tamannaa phir yaas ne rakkhaa hai qadam khaana-e-dil mein yaani hai ab allaah nigahbaan-e-tamannaa go chaak huaa dil magar armaan na nikle be-faaeda kholaa dar-e-zindaan-e-tamannaa afsaana miraa khvaab-e-zulekhaa-e-mohabbat jalva hai tiraa yusuf-e-kanaan-e-tamannaa juz vaada-e-baatil nahin buniyaad kuchh us ki dil kaanp uThaa dekh ke aivaan-e-tamannaa ik jaan hai vo khair se vaarafta-e-gham hai ik dil hai so hai sokhta-saamaan-e-tamannaa 'faani' kaa dam ik din tire qadmon pe nikal jaae dil ki ye tamannaa hai ab ai jaan-e-tamannaa"

"ibtidaa-e-ishq hai lutf-e-shabaab aane ko hai sabr rukhsat ho rahaa hai iztiraab aane ko hai qabr par kis shaan se vo be-naqaab aane ko hai aaftaab-e-subh-e-mahshar ham-rikaab aane ko hai mujh tak us mahfil mein phir jaam-e-sharaab aane ko hai umr-e-rafta palTi aati hai shabaab aane ko hai haae kaisi kashmakash hai yaas bhi hai aas bhi dam nikal jaane ko hai khat kaa javaab aane ko hai khat ke purze naama-bar ki laash ke hamraah hain kis DhiTaai se mire khat kaa javaab aane ko hai naa-umidi maut se kahti hai apnaa kaam kar aas kahti hai Thahar khat kaa javaab aane ko hai ruuh ghabraai hui phirti hai meri laash par kyaa janaaze par mere khat kaa javaab aane ko hai bhar ke saaqi jaam-e-mai ik aur laa aur jald laa un nashili ankhDiyon mein phir hijaab aane ko hai khaana-e-tasvir mein aane ko hai tasvir-e-yaar aaine mein qad-e-aadam aaftaab aane ko hai phir hinaai hone vaale hain mire qaatil ke haath phir zabaan-e-tegh par rang-e-shahaab aane ko hai gudgudaataa hai tasavvur chuTkiyaan letaa hai dard kyaa kisi be-khvaab ki aankhon mein khvaab aane ko hai dekhiye maut aae 'faani' yaa koi fitna uThe mere qaabu mein dil-e-be-sabr-o-taab aane ko hai"

"jazb-e-dil jab ba-ru-e-kaar aayaa har nafas se payaam-e-yaar aayaa maut kaa intizaar thaa aai jaaiye ab mujhe qaraar aayaa jab kisi ne liyaa tumhaaraa naam girya be-qasd-o-ikhtiyaar aayaa be-qaraari mein ab ye hosh nahin kis ke dar par tujhe pukaar aayaa farsh-e-gul phir bichhaa rahi hai nasim aaiye mausam-e-bahaar aayaa aaj ham pi sake na vo aansu un ke aage jo baar baar aayaa khair to hai ki aap ke dar se aaj 'faani' umid-vaar aayaa"

"justuju-e-nashaat-e-mubham kyaa dil mayassar hai lazzat-e-gham kyaa masti-e-hosh ke fasaane hain jashn-e-parvez o ishrat-e-jam kyaa ek aalam ko dekhtaa huun main ye tiraa dhyaan hai mujassam kyaa izn hangaama-e-nigaah na de kyaa hamaari bisaat aur ham kyaa nang-e-rahmat hai ehtiyaaj-e-duaa intizaar-e-gadaa-e-mubram kyaa meri fitrat hai gosh bar aavaaz sun rahaa huun navaa-e-mehram kyaa miT gayaa naam-e-aashiqi ab aur chaahtaa hai vo husn-e-barham kyaa kaash puchho to kuchh bataaein ham haasil-e-shikva haae baaham kyaa dil kamaal-e-hayaat hai 'faani' dil ke maare huon kaa maatam kyaa"

"phir khuun mein vahshat raqsaan hai tajdid sitam karne ke liye ik taaza zakhm ki khvaahish hai ik sadma kam karne ke liye ham din-bhar duniyaa-daari mein hans hans ke baatein karte hain phir saari raat pighalte hain ik ashk raqam karne ke liye vo vasl ki jis ne ham donon ko yaksar be-buniyaad kiyaa ab fursat hai aa mil baiThein us vasl kaa gham karne ke liye ik kaari zakhm ki chaahat ne kyaa kyaa na hamein gulzaar kiyaa ham kis kis se mansub hue ik hijr baham karne ke liye insaan ke jiine marne ke majburi ke mukhtaari ke ye saare khel zaruri hain taamir adam karne ke liye"

"chaand bhi khoyaa khoyaa saa hai taare bhi khvaabida hain aaj fazaa ke bojhal-pan se lahje bhi sanjida hain jaane kin kin logon se is dard ke kyaa kyaa rishte the hijr ki is aabaad saraa mein sab chehre naadida hain itne barson baad bhi donon kaise TuuT ke milte hain tu hai kitnaa saada-dil aur ham kitne pechida hain sun jaanaan ham tark-e-taalluq aur kisi din kar leinge aaj tujhe bhi ujlat si hai ham bhi kuchh ranjida hain kaanon mein ik sargoshi hai be-maani si sargoshi aankhon mein kuchh khvaab saje hain khvaab bhi umr-rasida hain ghar ki vo makhdush imaarat gir ke phir taamir hui ab aangan mein peD hain jitne saare shaakh burida hain is basti mein ek saDak hai jis se ham ko nafrat hai us ke niche pagDanDi hai jis ke ham girvida hain"

"raftagaan ki sadaa nahin main huun ye tiraa vaahima nahin main huun tere maazi ke saath dafn kahin meraa ik vaaqi'a nahin main huun kyaa milaa intihaa-pasandi se kyaa main tere sivaa nahin main huun ek muddat mein jaa ke mujh pe khulaa chaand hasrat-zada nahin main huun us ne mujh ko muhaal jaan liyaa main ye kahtaa rahaa nahin main huun main hi 'ujlat mein aa gayaa thaa idhar ye zamaana nayaa nahin main huun meri vahshat se Dar gae shaayad yaar baad-e-fanaa nahin main huun main tire saath rah gayaa huun kahin vaqt Thahraa huaa nahin main huun gaahe gaahe sukhan zaruri hai saamne aaina nahin main huun sarsari kyuun guzartaa hai mujh se ye miraa maajraa nahin main huun us ne puchhaa kahaan gayaa vo shakhs kyaa bataataa ki thaa nahin main huun ye kise dekhtaa hai mujh se udhar tere aage khalaa nahin main huun"

"dast-kash hon na mai-e-gul ke khush-aashaam abhi ki labaalab hain mah-o-mehr ke do-jaam abhi zehn mein saaqi hai mai-khaana hai hai jaam abhi hosh kahtaa huun ise hosh kaa kyaa kaam abhi mujh ko darkaar na hai kufr na islaam abhi sidhe sidhe hi chale aate hain paighaam abhi tu bhi baaqi tiri rahmat bhi hai baaqi saaqi rahne de hai mai-e-isyaan se baDaa kaam abhi khaal-o-gesu se hai ye silsila-e-raaz-o-niyaaz daana sad-daana ho ye daam ho sad-daam abhi ziist ke khvaab ki taabir abhi baaqi hai ibtidaa dekh chuke hai magar anjaam abhi rah-rav-e-ishq abhi duur hai mearaaj-e-habib rashk-e-manzil na huaa raah mein har gaam abhi zarra-zarra hai ik aatish-kada-e-nur kalim dekh agar tu na ho aatish-zada-e-baam abhi imtiyaaz-e-man-o-tu raaz-e-khafi hai lekin khaasgaan ke liye kahtaa huun sar-e-aam abhi aks ko zo'm hai be-misli-e-rang-o-bu kaa turfa ye hai ki muqaabil hai vo gulfaam abhi raaz-goi tiri 'aiman' hai gunaah-e-akbar maang le afv ki us kaa hai karam aam abhi"

"baad-e-shimaal chalne lagi ang ang mein lipTaa hai kaun mujh se ye patjhaD ke rang mein khvaahish ke kaarobaar se bachnaa muhaal hai utregaa tu bhi saath mire is surang mein main aandhiyon mein haath bhi pakDun tiraa to kyaa ik shaakh-e-be-siper huun havaaon ki jang mein 'raanjhaa' main 'ahd-e-nau kaa qabilon mein baT gayaa to 'hir' ban ke pi na saki zahr jhang mein garmaa sakin na chaahatein teraa kaThor jism har ek jal ke bujh gai tasvir sang mein aage 'musavvir' aag 'aqab mein hai ye sadaa pichhe na muD ke dekhnaa is dasht-e-sang mein"

"tifli piiri o naujavaani hech tiin din ki hai zindagaani hech umr-e-do-roza par ghamanD itnaa munimon ki hai lan-taraani hech raat thoDi hai aao pyaar karein subh ko hogi ye kahaani hech chaar din ki bahaar hai saari ye takabbur hai yaar-e-jaani hech dil ke haathon 'haqir' jhagDon mein meri guzri sadaa javaani hech"